Too many people so that ....

[Gurp]

I am new to this site, there is a feeling in me due to loneliness that i joined this which is kind of odd.I know this site wont help , its all superficial.
But anyway, here goes it.I have made it a bit.I am in an IT job.Computers , computers till infinity.

I have only one need now , a girl and some friends who are like me and that i wont have to modify myself to be wif' 'em.

Part of my loneliness issue happened due to a bad heartbreak 4 years back, which led me to cling to "better off alone" attitude.I cant trust any girl, hell i cant also find any girl too(this is also a problem).

I have been split into 2 personalities since that heartbreak.One is a rapstar(who boasts about what he has achieved and heals himself when he feels sad by bragging to himself and buying designer honeysuckle), the other one is a punk/gothic complaint rock/metal guy who says world is so cold.

Also i did try to join some mail order bride russian site.But i know and it also felt like a scam.I cant have any more problems like that so i left it.
I dont want to join any site like that (relationship site) to get a girl.To hell with that.If i post here that " please be my wife/lets know each other" then someone will post here " this is not a relationship site , get off"

Also it feels too much odd here , there's just too many people , too many threads , that it seems no one really cares to read anything and everybody is just posting and posting.Thats why my subject of post is "there are just too many people" on this site.Which may lead to zero.

So this is the honeysuckle i feel. Saturated from loneliness.Come come my lady

You saw that ?? i still smile inspite of all that.I still stand , i smile.I have taken my blows and i am still standing.

 

[Ca7nage79]

I'm new to this site =D hello.....

 

[Gurp]

ya , hello hello , welcome my pen friend. what up

 

[ladyforsaken]

Hi Gurp, you're interesting. Welcome to the forum.

 

[AFrozenSoul]

Hmmm well we are pretty similar. I am software developer, I try my best to lie to myself about how awesome I am.. I know it is not true.. but lies.. lie enough.. well.. maybe it will become true.

I do not know.. I cannot advise because I have not fixed myself.. so.. I figured you would like to know you are alone.

 

[perfanoff]

Welcome.

How come so many IT guys around here?

 

[OhGodImLonely]

I am new to this site, there is a feeling in me due to loneliness that i joined this which is kind of odd.I know this site wont help , its all superficial.
But anyway, here goes it.I have made it a bit.I am in an IT job.Computers , computers till infinity.

I have only one need now , a girl and some friends who are like me and that i wont have to modify myself to be wif' 'em.

Part of my loneliness issue happened due to a bad heartbreak 4 years back, which led me to cling to "better off alone" attitude.I cant trust any girl, hell i cant also find any girl too(this is also a problem).

I have been split into 2 personalities since that heartbreak.One is a rapstar(who boasts about what he has achieved and heals himself when he feels sad by bragging to himself and buying designer honeysuckle), the other one is a punk/gothic complaint rock/metal guy who says world is so cold.

Also i did try to join some mail order bride russian site.But i know and it also felt like a scam.I cant have any more problems like that so i left it.
I dont want to join any site like that (relationship site) to get a girl.To hell with that.If i post here that " please be my wife/lets know each other" then someone will post here " this is not a relationship site , get off"

Also it feels too much odd here , there's just too many people , too many threads , that it seems no one really cares to read anything and everybody is just posting and posting.Thats why my subject of post is "there are just too many people" on this site.Which may lead to zero.

So this is the honeysuckle i feel. Saturated from loneliness.Come come my lady

You saw that ?? i still smile inspite of all that.I still stand , i smile.I have taken my blows and i am still standing.

You are saying you are a rapstar as in your head or for real ?

 

[Gurp]

I am new to this site, there is a feeling in me due to loneliness that i joined this which is kind of odd.I know this site wont help , its all superficial.
But anyway, here goes it.I have made it a bit.I am in an IT job.Computers , computers till infinity.

I have only one need now , a girl and some friends who are like me and that i wont have to modify myself to be wif' 'em.

Part of my loneliness issue happened due to a bad heartbreak 4 years back, which led me to cling to "better off alone" attitude.I cant trust any girl, hell i cant also find any girl too(this is also a problem).

I have been split into 2 personalities since that heartbreak.One is a rapstar(who boasts about what he has achieved and heals himself when he feels sad by bragging to himself and buying designer honeysuckle), the other one is a punk/gothic complaint rock/metal guy who says world is so cold.

Also i did try to join some mail order bride russian site.But i know and it also felt like a scam.I cant have any more problems like that so i left it.
I dont want to join any site like that (relationship site) to get a girl.To hell with that.If i post here that " please be my wife/lets know each other" then someone will post here " this is not a relationship site , get off"

Also it feels too much odd here , there's just too many people , too many threads , that it seems no one really cares to read anything and everybody is just posting and posting.Thats why my subject of post is "there are just too many people" on this site.Which may lead to zero.

So this is the honeysuckle i feel. Saturated from loneliness.Come come my lady

You saw that ?? i still smile inspite of all that.I still stand , i smile.I have taken my blows and i am still standing.

You are saying you are a rapstar as in your head or for real ?

umm , i meant not a real rapstar man.Only a self proclaimed one.Louis v and gucci honeysuckle.But inside not very happy.
But i have recovered from a serious addiction and i am becoming more happier everyday since 3-4 months.

And ok , my serious addiction was " pornography".I found refuge in it , but it was a prison in disguise.This is a debatable topic and can continue till midnight haha. For all brothers under serious addictions , think about the freedom you will get after breaking the chains.A little bit of religion in life may help.I had to find my own ways out too apart from born again type of religiosity.
Cheers!