HappyYogi
Well-known member
Hi. Embarrassed to admit this but yesterday FB triggered some sad/upsetting emotions in me.
I had an OK weekend, not great but decent. I go onto FB and read two people's posts. One, from a single middle aged guy, gushing about his great family, great friends and listed all the fun he has had in the last two weeks (trips, Disneyland, dinners, fun fun fun).
Another is just an acquaintance but this woman has an extremely busy social life. Constantly posting pics of herself drinking with others, partying, etc and then telling us all the fun friends who will be visiting in the summer and her Oscar party! I don't drink so I don't have an interest in that kind of socializing but I would really love to have more opportunities to have fun.
I have a social life but it is weak and I work hard to keep myself involved and somewhat involved and social but for the life of me, I cannot understand how some people can create such huge social lives!
I just don't have that gene, that capability. Heck, I don't have the energy! Also it being winter, I don't like to go out that much during the winter...I prefer to be at home at night.
I hate to say this...it made me feel sad for myself. I know that is not healthy and I prefer to be in gratitude but for a while, I couldn't help it. It made me feel lonely.
I guess I am envious of the love, companionship and easy fun these people have. The family get togethers of the one man especially hurt as I am on the outside of my family. I would love to be part of something larger, to MATTER, to be VALUED, to share, give, have fun with, etc.
I can't help but feel bad when I see others have what I so deeply crave so easily. What is wrong with me that I don't have it? No matter how hard I tried, I could not be valued. I could not be included. I could not be loved after so much effort.
Makes my heart sink.
And this man on FB, he is one of the few FB people I really enjoy and would really like to know better. But I can see he has such a busy social life, I doubt he has time, or the need for me, even though he likes my posts and we've had discussions.Well, I've asked him if we could meet (as friends of course) he said "ok" but I've been busy...but now I am too ashamed to meet him as my life is not even close to his.
I don't know how they do it. While I am friendly to most I meet, and love to converse and share...I can't seem to create that loving, fun, social life like they do.
Sigh.
I had an OK weekend, not great but decent. I go onto FB and read two people's posts. One, from a single middle aged guy, gushing about his great family, great friends and listed all the fun he has had in the last two weeks (trips, Disneyland, dinners, fun fun fun).
Another is just an acquaintance but this woman has an extremely busy social life. Constantly posting pics of herself drinking with others, partying, etc and then telling us all the fun friends who will be visiting in the summer and her Oscar party! I don't drink so I don't have an interest in that kind of socializing but I would really love to have more opportunities to have fun.
I have a social life but it is weak and I work hard to keep myself involved and somewhat involved and social but for the life of me, I cannot understand how some people can create such huge social lives!
I just don't have that gene, that capability. Heck, I don't have the energy! Also it being winter, I don't like to go out that much during the winter...I prefer to be at home at night.
I hate to say this...it made me feel sad for myself. I know that is not healthy and I prefer to be in gratitude but for a while, I couldn't help it. It made me feel lonely.
I guess I am envious of the love, companionship and easy fun these people have. The family get togethers of the one man especially hurt as I am on the outside of my family. I would love to be part of something larger, to MATTER, to be VALUED, to share, give, have fun with, etc.
I can't help but feel bad when I see others have what I so deeply crave so easily. What is wrong with me that I don't have it? No matter how hard I tried, I could not be valued. I could not be included. I could not be loved after so much effort.
Makes my heart sink.
And this man on FB, he is one of the few FB people I really enjoy and would really like to know better. But I can see he has such a busy social life, I doubt he has time, or the need for me, even though he likes my posts and we've had discussions.Well, I've asked him if we could meet (as friends of course) he said "ok" but I've been busy...but now I am too ashamed to meet him as my life is not even close to his.
I don't know how they do it. While I am friendly to most I meet, and love to converse and share...I can't seem to create that loving, fun, social life like they do.
Sigh.