Kate said:
Thank-you for the messages.. It's been a rough few days and I've felt really down. I try not to let myself get that bad, but sometimes it's inevitable.. Meeting others would definitely help, but shyness dictates me.. just as much as no self-confidence..
Hi Kate. You made the decision to post on this site, and did that without your husbands help, I presume? That was not only a decision, but also courageous of you, and a good step. Being proactive is sometimes very difficult, especially when you are shy, or unhappy, or have no self-confidence. But I am sure, actually I know, without a doubt that there are decisions that you make on your own, even if just little ones such as posting here, or when you decide to go out for a walk... do you not make a decision which corner to go down?
I am sorry to hear that you are unhappy in your marriage. Many, most, if not all, the people on this site can relate to your loneliness. The worst part about lonliness, at least to me, is when you are lonely even when you are around people. It must be difficult for you, but I know that you are seeking to fix your situation, otherwise you wouldn't be here posting, and that is really cool of you...
I wished I had some great words that would take away your feelings of hopelessness, but I don't, because I kind of feel the same way right now. It is an aweful feeling, but you are not alone in that feeling. I see no way out of where I am at, but I continue on... i guess, maybe, there is a hint of hope there. You do have hope, yourself, otherwise you wouldn't be here sharing yourself with us... you have hope, hope that something good will come out of posting on this site. So? you DO have hope !!! if even a miniscule, barely visible amount