SophiaGrace said:
Sanal said:
Lonesome Crow said:
hahahahahaaaa...how about if i just do the Good Orderly Directions?
God dosn't expect me to do honeysuckle...God expect nothing of me.
It's still free will wheather I belive in god or not.
I can have peace in my life becuase it's my choice or of my own free will wheather I belive in GOD or not.
If god wants to come alone for a ride...then god it's god's chioce too.
If there is a god...then why would I have to seek god out...God is not lost....after all if there is a GOD..God better not be fucken lost.lol
If there is a god...then why the fresia would god play games of hide and seek with me...that's retarded.
If there is a god...God wouldn't be separated from me to make honeysuckle all fucken complicated
And how in the fresia can god be out of my life...if there is a god...After all, isn't GOD everything?
God is the alpha and the omega...GOD is everything. So if that's true...wouldn't I be a part of GOD already?
If there is a GOD...GOD better fucken UNDERSTAND. After all..GOD KNOWS EVERYTHING and have all the answers that's way
beyound my comprehension...IF GOD dosn't undersrtand me...That would be a restarded god.
After all...that's what makes GOD...GOD. GOD has unlimited love, understanding, knowlege and power.
Well...if god be holding out on me or I have to earn GOD's LOVE...Then that would be a selfish, selfcenter, manipulating
controling fucken god..lmao And i don't need a fucken threatening brimstone , hell fire and impending doom of a god to keep
me living in fucken feaRS of going to hell...
I can make my own fucken hell...I don't need god's help doing that.
So you say that you dont believe in GOD?
I'm amused seeing how many times you mentioned "God" in your post lol
I think half of anything lonesome says is for our amusement
WTF?!?....man
Progress not perfection
Would you rather have me go back to my old ways of writting
"FUCKEN *****" all the time
I belive in a Higher Power of sort....
KInd of like the power of the pussy. If I stay plug in, it's heavenly
Seriuosly though...
I work the 12 step program...and there's steps in there about god and stuff.
It's a spritual program not a religious program.
Turning my will and life over to a GOD of my understanding..as stated in step #3....
(A god of my understanding) is a very important element...It's this principles that I apply in other area of my life.
I don't understand god the way my parents, children, families, friends, minister, or the fucken POPe undestands god. It's okay.
Working step #3 is like FREEDOM at the core. It relieves me of the guilt, shame, judgements, control or manipulations.
It's an awarness of being OK with ME. Once I'm aware of that...my self esteem or self worth increase.
Self acceptence. I'm no longer is compeled to do anything. I'm able to stand on my own two feet as a person.
It's relationship building...wheather I build a relationship with a LOVING GOD that loves me unconditionally (if I chose too)
or I build a relationship within myself ( HigherSelf). I apply the principle of unconditional love within myself...
I stop condeming myself for making mistakes. I forgive myself for making mistakes. I beliving in myself as I belive in god.
SO..it's kind of like having a person Jesus...mmmm what the fresia would my higherself do?
I stop judging myself. Once I apply these principles within myself...it becomes natrual that it expand outward from with in.
Then bacailly it's relationship building with other human beings...A loving and healthy relationship.lol
Some people would say...it's like god's love working through me...okay whatever works for them...
Then a simple slogon such as "live and let live" makes sence. I'm OK and you're OK.
The freedom that's I've allow myself...this freedom must be allow for others to belive or not belive. To live thier life anyway they chose.
I can't give them something they already have within themselves already. Poeple are going to do whatever they're going to do and they
don't need my permission...At the same tokken...I don't need the fucken POPe's or anyone else's permission to live and be happy either.
That's why some phases are retarded...my life's experince are different than other poeple's. It's my truth and reality. It's no more or less
than your reality. It's just me experince. I can share my experince, strenght and hope.
I have to be very careful what I say to people...especailly when dealing with death of a love one.
Everyone process and grieve differntly.
Sometimes it's best to not say anything..but to just let them know I care.
What rings true for me dosn't necessary ring true for others.
What constitute my awareness is not the same as your awareness...and it's okay.
And I've struggling with the God thing after Jenni's death.
Whatever my perception, belief about god or life in general had altered.
I can't put my old ideas or belief about god back to how it was...not anymore than I can bring Jenni back to life.
Poeple were telling all kinds of stuff...they had good intension..but while I was processing it..nothing that was said made fucken sense to me.
I felt very hurt and angery when she died. And people were trying to make me feel better...it's wasn't hapenning. So I isolated myself even further
away from poeple. I hardly mention Jenni's death the anyone...people that didn't know expactly what I was going through would say stupid honeysuckle,
give me advice that didn't have anything to do with anything..They bascailly thought they had me figure out without even knowing or formed
an opionion about me already.
They thought I was crying, sad or angery at my ex-gf Sherry....WRONG !!!!
You know the old saying...Don't judge a book by it's cover.
And it's ok to not belive in GOD as a Christian...there's plenty of religion in this world that dosn't belief in the concept of GOD...
The concept of a HIGHER SELF or GOD within all of us.
It bascailly come back to FREEWILL. You and i can chose to belive or not belive in anything.
Ok...so after 20 years of being divorce from my Ex-WF...She came back into my life.
She told me, she been praying for me prior to finding me.
I guess it's a mirracle in a way. She and I still love each other very much.
There's was a lot of hate and animosity in our relationship or divorce.
There's peace and love in our relationship today..It's was healing for the both of us.
Maybe that's god working our lives...IDK
The spirit of love over coming hate. It's our chioce to love or hate.
I pray for her...I praY for her highest goods.
Well...then there's also rule #62.
That's the rule that say...."Don't take yourself so god **** seriously all the time"
