I've never been too good when it comes to the social graces. At 21 years old I have no friends (nor have I ever really, I spent most of childhood mooching off my older brother's friends), I've never had a girlfriend or a serious crush, all that I really have is my family, and I won't likely have that forever.
I've tried to do things recently to make myself better, I've tried to learn to play guitar or draw in order to impress people, I've tried to meet people at clubs and make friends, I've read up everything I can find with regards to attracting women or making friends, Unfortunately, all these things require years, possibly even decades to master, and I don't know if I have enough time to do anything about my current situation.
Back when I was in High School, I always figured that I would grow out of my awkward phase, that as soon as I went to college I would find hundreds of like-minded people to connect with, to love and be loved. I was an idiot. I'm now coming up on my senior year of college, and despite succeeding in achieving a good GPA I've failed at pretty much everything else I set out to do. I wish that I had picked up a cool skill when I was in middle school, like guitar or a foreign language, then I'd have something to bring to the table when it comes to attracting mates and friends besides boring history facts and stupid jokes. I wish that I had learned how to flirt with girls when I was younger, because right now I have no idea how to approach a girl and no idea what to do if I succeeded in getting a date.
I remember, back in my senior year of high school, one of my teachers told me that there was a girl in my mock trial club that had a crush on me. I even thought that I knew who it was at the time. But now I realize that my teacher was probably just lieing to me, trying to make me feel better about myself.
It is too late for me, I had chance to learn how to live a good life and I squandered the opportunity without even realizing it.
I've tried to do things recently to make myself better, I've tried to learn to play guitar or draw in order to impress people, I've tried to meet people at clubs and make friends, I've read up everything I can find with regards to attracting women or making friends, Unfortunately, all these things require years, possibly even decades to master, and I don't know if I have enough time to do anything about my current situation.
Back when I was in High School, I always figured that I would grow out of my awkward phase, that as soon as I went to college I would find hundreds of like-minded people to connect with, to love and be loved. I was an idiot. I'm now coming up on my senior year of college, and despite succeeding in achieving a good GPA I've failed at pretty much everything else I set out to do. I wish that I had picked up a cool skill when I was in middle school, like guitar or a foreign language, then I'd have something to bring to the table when it comes to attracting mates and friends besides boring history facts and stupid jokes. I wish that I had learned how to flirt with girls when I was younger, because right now I have no idea how to approach a girl and no idea what to do if I succeeded in getting a date.
I remember, back in my senior year of high school, one of my teachers told me that there was a girl in my mock trial club that had a crush on me. I even thought that I knew who it was at the time. But now I realize that my teacher was probably just lieing to me, trying to make me feel better about myself.
It is too late for me, I had chance to learn how to live a good life and I squandered the opportunity without even realizing it.