Hellow guyz, Im new here and I just wanted to ask some questions.
Aight, basically my life has been full of troubles and problems, like everyone elses, but all I seem to care about is Love. I mean:
Im 21 years old and still unemployed - that doesnt bother me.
I have only couple of friends left, all the other ones are gone - that doesnt bother me.
I have social anxiety it seems, no self-esteem whatsoever - that doesnt bother me.
Lately i've been experiencing sleeping disorders, sleeping about 3 hours a night - that doesnt bother me.
Everyone in my family seems to dont like me (even my own parents) but guess what - that doesnt bother me.
Pressure gets more intense, as the days go by, for me to start to get a life or get a job... yet, - that doesnt bother me.
I care about one thing and one thing only; love. All i dream about is beeing with a girl.. you know, grab her hips, see that beautiful smile, smell her casual yet powerful perfume, while feeling her sweet long darkhair on my face :].
I cannot understand how on earth this happend to me. I mean i have so much to do with my life, so much stuff to worry about, and all I care about is this. I feel like something's wrong with me.. something's missing.. I desperately try to find what is it, so I can try to give it a fix! Now I even seem to be mean to other people for no reason, and they get the wrong impression, witch doesnt help. I guess Im just getting tired of it all.
Like I've read it somewhere.. lately i've becoming numb.. nothing as any meaning. I look at people around me and they seem to always be faking smiles and feelings.. They want to be better than everyone else.. like if there was some sort of 'respected ladder' or something. Man, I dont know..
I mean, what happend to our innocence? To our 'Humility'?
Definition: Humility is the quality of being humble: modest, not proud, doing something out of the goodness of your heart, not for yourself and egoless.
Why do we have to prove that we are better then somebody else?
Why do i keep thinking about love? Is this normal?
Did you ever felt like trapped in a body that doesnt belong to you?
I feel like i have a high mountain to climb in the next few months.. but alone and without any motivation or strength Im not sure if I'll be able to do it. If only someone was by my side.. entertaining me, making the struggle worth it, as we were climbing this mountain step by step while holdin' hands. That way i could conquer the f***** world!!!
So this is basically it, I just wanted to hear what u guys think about this. Any reply will be welcome.
PS: I'm sorry for the bad english... Im from Portugal, and I've never really been a pro at English xD
Aight, basically my life has been full of troubles and problems, like everyone elses, but all I seem to care about is Love. I mean:
Im 21 years old and still unemployed - that doesnt bother me.
I have only couple of friends left, all the other ones are gone - that doesnt bother me.
I have social anxiety it seems, no self-esteem whatsoever - that doesnt bother me.
Lately i've been experiencing sleeping disorders, sleeping about 3 hours a night - that doesnt bother me.
Everyone in my family seems to dont like me (even my own parents) but guess what - that doesnt bother me.
Pressure gets more intense, as the days go by, for me to start to get a life or get a job... yet, - that doesnt bother me.
I care about one thing and one thing only; love. All i dream about is beeing with a girl.. you know, grab her hips, see that beautiful smile, smell her casual yet powerful perfume, while feeling her sweet long darkhair on my face :].
I cannot understand how on earth this happend to me. I mean i have so much to do with my life, so much stuff to worry about, and all I care about is this. I feel like something's wrong with me.. something's missing.. I desperately try to find what is it, so I can try to give it a fix! Now I even seem to be mean to other people for no reason, and they get the wrong impression, witch doesnt help. I guess Im just getting tired of it all.
Like I've read it somewhere.. lately i've becoming numb.. nothing as any meaning. I look at people around me and they seem to always be faking smiles and feelings.. They want to be better than everyone else.. like if there was some sort of 'respected ladder' or something. Man, I dont know..
I mean, what happend to our innocence? To our 'Humility'?
Definition: Humility is the quality of being humble: modest, not proud, doing something out of the goodness of your heart, not for yourself and egoless.
Why do we have to prove that we are better then somebody else?
Why do i keep thinking about love? Is this normal?
Did you ever felt like trapped in a body that doesnt belong to you?
I feel like i have a high mountain to climb in the next few months.. but alone and without any motivation or strength Im not sure if I'll be able to do it. If only someone was by my side.. entertaining me, making the struggle worth it, as we were climbing this mountain step by step while holdin' hands. That way i could conquer the f***** world!!!
So this is basically it, I just wanted to hear what u guys think about this. Any reply will be welcome.
PS: I'm sorry for the bad english... Im from Portugal, and I've never really been a pro at English xD