For starters, I just want to make it clear, this isn't a pity party. I'm not after sympathy here, I know it'll get better in time, hell maybe even tommorow, I just need a clear head, and a forum to vent and some time.
I found out today that my brother is getting engaged. This in itself is not a problem, but the timing couldn't be worse for me. I had just started to turn my life around, I was leaving the house more, starting to work out, getting ready for the BARB. But when I look at the grand scheme of things, his life compared to mine (I know I shouldn't do that) I can't help but feel depressed. He's only two years older than me, and he's almost done university, he's got some good job prospects for when he's done school, and now this, one of the ultimate tests of responsibility (save having a child), I'm sitting here, unemployed with only a high school, and it pisses me off. I'm not mad at him but myself, I sort of feel like a failure, but at the same time I'm hoping that this will give me the determination I need to better myself. It can go one of two ways from here, and I hope its the more positive way.
If you read this and have made it this far, I'm impressed by your determination. I need some cheese now.
I found out today that my brother is getting engaged. This in itself is not a problem, but the timing couldn't be worse for me. I had just started to turn my life around, I was leaving the house more, starting to work out, getting ready for the BARB. But when I look at the grand scheme of things, his life compared to mine (I know I shouldn't do that) I can't help but feel depressed. He's only two years older than me, and he's almost done university, he's got some good job prospects for when he's done school, and now this, one of the ultimate tests of responsibility (save having a child), I'm sitting here, unemployed with only a high school, and it pisses me off. I'm not mad at him but myself, I sort of feel like a failure, but at the same time I'm hoping that this will give me the determination I need to better myself. It can go one of two ways from here, and I hope its the more positive way.
If you read this and have made it this far, I'm impressed by your determination. I need some cheese now.