To be honest, I don't what I am or what I have become, or my very own existence. Loneliness is a feeling every human being know off, and yet it OK to feel lonely sometime, but it is not normal to feel this lonely on an everyday basis. Let me clarify something, I guess it feel less painful when your lonely and normal, but when your not normal and lonely, it hurt. It you, it your fault for being in this place, for being lonely, even though you didn't choose this life, you still feel guilty for being in this state of emotion, this feeling of rejection, this consuming self-isolation and hatred toward yourself, while on the same time eating you up inside, making you feel so lifeless, so bitter, so restless, and sometime so emotionless as well. How could you even call yourselves normal when you can't even talk to people, can even socialize like a normal human being? Constantly you are playing your life like a game, your gambling your life away with every single moment you decide to play the waiting game. Every days, every hours, every minute, every second off your life that you don't try to talk to people, make friends, find a partner, you are losing precious moment off your life.