I hate that I always feel like who I am is just unworthy...
That is not true.
Truth is stranger than fiction, is the thing.
We're subjective beings having an objective experience that we call Life.
It gets dicey because we don't totally understand things as they are.
We don't understand things as they are because the way that things are, is actually pretty scientifically bizarre.
See, the brain, is more like an antenna for receiving information, rather than for broadcasting information.
This is evident through medical and scientific research on information processing in regards to the five senses, and how the brain processes that information. It doesn't use its full potential to process that information, is the thing.
What that means is, that we're being bombarded by sensory overload pretty much all of the time, and what's being processed, is what we can catch out of that constant effect. A bit like net fishing in the ocean.
This is the origin of all human interpersonal conflict and insecurity, actually.
What we believe is real on a sensory level, is entirely subjective out of the information we pick up on.
And no two people pick up on exactly the same things on a sensory level, which is how you get the differences in perceptions of reality, and effectively all interpersonal conflicts and insecurities.
I hope you feel better. Get some rest, if it's late here, and over there is 5 hours ahead of over here, it's late there.
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