I hate it when people offer their friendship to me and I get all happy and excited that maybe for once I'll have a friend but then nothing comes out of it, the people forget all about me. A few weeks ago I got "I want to extend my hand in friendship with you" offers from different sources online, it was completely unexpected and a real surprise and I was touched. I felt happy and hopeful that since they approached me and offered me their friendship, that you know....we might try to be friends? But nah. One person, I've been e-mailing but I feel like such a bother and they don't give any signs that they're interested in me being in their life, it makes me really sad because they did offer their friendship to me but I guess it was a ******* lie because so far I'm the only one e-mailing her and asking her about her day and she doesn't even e-mail back and when she does, she doesn't even ask how I've been. She doesn't care.
Then another person, sent me a PM also offering me her friendship, that was a month ago or more and she never answered back since then. Then another person, it seemed promising but turned out they're just a troll. I hate it when people offer friendship and then act like you don't exist at all.
Man, I'm so goddamn lonely that whenever I get a phone notification (from a game iphone app) I get excited because those are the ONLY notifications I receive. I have no friends to call me or text me or ANYTHING. I'm so goddamn lonely. I don't know what to ******* do.
I just tried talking to my mom since she's the only person available and she literally acted like I didn't even exist, even after I tried talking to her, she didn't look at me or anything, she literally acted like I don't exist. Now I'm crying. Even when I approach people, they treat me like I don't ******* exist. My own ******* mother treats me like I don't exist.
