LeaningIntoTheMuse
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This is something I've always struggled with. I have low self esteem, but I generally am in a happy mood...until someone ruins my day somehow. And then I don't know how to handle it.
Take yesterday. I walked into a pet store, and this blond girl, around 20 years old, walked up to me. "Can I help you with anything?" she said, with a sneer on her face. And frequently, when I asked her questions, she would respond with a 'piss off' face expression.
I didn't know this girl. She didn't act this way around the other coworker, who was a guy. If she had, I would have assumed that she had a problem with guys in general. But no...it was just me.
What about me did she dislike? I know most people like me, and I know you can't win over everyone, but I hate it when I don't even know what I'm doing wrong! Was it my long hair? My few days worth of beard? My t shirt and shorts? What?
God, I hate being self critical, but at the same time, I can't just throw this away. It makes me feel depressed, and like it will happen with my friends too, not just strangers.
Take yesterday. I walked into a pet store, and this blond girl, around 20 years old, walked up to me. "Can I help you with anything?" she said, with a sneer on her face. And frequently, when I asked her questions, she would respond with a 'piss off' face expression.
I didn't know this girl. She didn't act this way around the other coworker, who was a guy. If she had, I would have assumed that she had a problem with guys in general. But no...it was just me.
What about me did she dislike? I know most people like me, and I know you can't win over everyone, but I hate it when I don't even know what I'm doing wrong! Was it my long hair? My few days worth of beard? My t shirt and shorts? What?
God, I hate being self critical, but at the same time, I can't just throw this away. It makes me feel depressed, and like it will happen with my friends too, not just strangers.