Solace
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I cannot bear the loneliness.
When my emotions are raging with unbearable speed and intensity, I need to take an action. When my depression was it is worst it drove me to self harm. I've since learned to deal with it in other ways and am accident free for almost two years.
Just like when you are hungry you are driven to action, when my emotions are strong I am driven to action. Only emotions don't have such and easy solution, a usual action.
When I am afraid of coming disaster I spend my time on things that cannot be taken away from me. Books, poetry, learning new skills, memorizing things. When I am anxious I sit down, close my eyes and recite poetry till the spinning in the world stops. When I am depressed I find my journal and write till the feelings pass... if they do. If not I hold tightly to a beautiful lie till the truth comes around.
But the loneliness has no clear action. I talk with people, but I feel as if I am missing someone specific. I don't know who though. I cannot connect.
I was crying about it last night. I miss them so much. That one person that I must have known, once... The hole is massive, eating away at me. I feel like someone is missing from my family. When will they come? i'm waiting. Not tonight though, no, never tonight.
And I am melodramatic yes but oh well.
Any thing suggested? What action could I take when I feel this eating away at me? This expectancy?
When my emotions are raging with unbearable speed and intensity, I need to take an action. When my depression was it is worst it drove me to self harm. I've since learned to deal with it in other ways and am accident free for almost two years.
Just like when you are hungry you are driven to action, when my emotions are strong I am driven to action. Only emotions don't have such and easy solution, a usual action.
When I am afraid of coming disaster I spend my time on things that cannot be taken away from me. Books, poetry, learning new skills, memorizing things. When I am anxious I sit down, close my eyes and recite poetry till the spinning in the world stops. When I am depressed I find my journal and write till the feelings pass... if they do. If not I hold tightly to a beautiful lie till the truth comes around.
But the loneliness has no clear action. I talk with people, but I feel as if I am missing someone specific. I don't know who though. I cannot connect.
I was crying about it last night. I miss them so much. That one person that I must have known, once... The hole is massive, eating away at me. I feel like someone is missing from my family. When will they come? i'm waiting. Not tonight though, no, never tonight.
And I am melodramatic yes but oh well.
Any thing suggested? What action could I take when I feel this eating away at me? This expectancy?