Papabear
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I'm in quite an awkward situation right now, I feel like I just need to vent to someone about it to maybe feel better, so I'm gonna post it here.
I know a girl who I can not be with, there are some good reasons for this, none of them I want to talk about, but regardless... we can't be together.
This all started last summer, I've known her for a long time but it was the first time we got to spend a long time together. We spent 4 weeks together almost every day just hangning out. After about 2 we both realized there was attraction to each other, things started happening that probably shouldn't have. After those 4 weeks were over she left town and the weight of reality set in.
We saw each other a few more times since then and every time was so tense, you could still tell the attraction was there from both sides. Well she's back in town for another month. A few nights ago after a party her and I ended up sharing a couch for the night and it ended with her wrapped up in my arms holding me and holding my hands.
The problem is that this isn't going anywhere, but it feels like it should be, but it never will be... I don't know if I feel the way I do because of the "forbidden fruit" factor or because of my legitimate feelings but I promise that they've seemed a lot more legitimate than any other romantic feelings that I've had in a long long time.
It really sucks, but not in a way that is tearing me up or anything, it's just one of those things that's like "man, this really sucks" but it's so real that we can't be together that i don't let it really hurt me, it just sorta bums me out now and then.
Sorry, I just wanted to share and maybe get some input on this situation. (not advice, just a conversation.)
I know a girl who I can not be with, there are some good reasons for this, none of them I want to talk about, but regardless... we can't be together.
This all started last summer, I've known her for a long time but it was the first time we got to spend a long time together. We spent 4 weeks together almost every day just hangning out. After about 2 we both realized there was attraction to each other, things started happening that probably shouldn't have. After those 4 weeks were over she left town and the weight of reality set in.
We saw each other a few more times since then and every time was so tense, you could still tell the attraction was there from both sides. Well she's back in town for another month. A few nights ago after a party her and I ended up sharing a couch for the night and it ended with her wrapped up in my arms holding me and holding my hands.
The problem is that this isn't going anywhere, but it feels like it should be, but it never will be... I don't know if I feel the way I do because of the "forbidden fruit" factor or because of my legitimate feelings but I promise that they've seemed a lot more legitimate than any other romantic feelings that I've had in a long long time.
It really sucks, but not in a way that is tearing me up or anything, it's just one of those things that's like "man, this really sucks" but it's so real that we can't be together that i don't let it really hurt me, it just sorta bums me out now and then.
Sorry, I just wanted to share and maybe get some input on this situation. (not advice, just a conversation.)