Code S.O.L
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So tonight on facebook, I saw an ultrasound of my best friend's girl's baby. I should be happy for them. And don't get me wrong, I am happy for them. But upon looking at that ultrasound, a thought occured to me. This is the same guy who was essentially my only friend in highschool-my only real friend to this day. The same guy that used to hang out with me and play video games. We're both in our mid 20's, and he has a strong career, a faithful soon-to-be-wife, a house under construction, ambitions for the future, and now...... a family. Me....... well I still work part time, still live with one parent. And I'm still playing video games.
I should be happy, but I'm kinda sad for two reasons. His new house will be far away into the countryside. With him and his girl gone, it more or less means that all my social activity will remain on forums now. It's also forced me to look back on the past, and wonder why our lives turned out so differently. He'd always been ambitious. Determined to do whatever it took to get what he wanted-and **** anyone that got in his way. While I've been happy to just coast along and grab whatever floated my way. Guess I'm starting to pay for it now. So while he secures a legacy and a future for his family, the best I can manage is to hopefully earn a big enough paycheck to finally leave the nest and scrape along comfortably without any assistance. But nothing more.
I should be happy for them, and yet here I am thinking only of myself. Truly, I'm an incorigable human being........
I should be happy, but I'm kinda sad for two reasons. His new house will be far away into the countryside. With him and his girl gone, it more or less means that all my social activity will remain on forums now. It's also forced me to look back on the past, and wonder why our lives turned out so differently. He'd always been ambitious. Determined to do whatever it took to get what he wanted-and **** anyone that got in his way. While I've been happy to just coast along and grab whatever floated my way. Guess I'm starting to pay for it now. So while he secures a legacy and a future for his family, the best I can manage is to hopefully earn a big enough paycheck to finally leave the nest and scrape along comfortably without any assistance. But nothing more.
I should be happy for them, and yet here I am thinking only of myself. Truly, I'm an incorigable human being........