Yes, she did. She was bipolar. She did a lot of terrible things. I am going through right now what she was going through and I can't ask her what I'm supposed to do because she's gone. I'm down to 3 friends and a mother and that's it. I work, I go to the gym everyday for 2+ hours per day to combat boredom and loneliness, and the rest of the time I sit at home feeling ashamed of myself and feeling alone. All I ever wanted was to be in love. My whole life, that's all I wanted. I have never been truly in love with another person and I would trade everything for it. I passed on a loving relationship (like a fool) because I wanted to be in love. For some reason, even getting a girl interested in me has been 50x harder for me to find than other people... and I'm not sure why. I'm smart, handsome, funny, motivated, caring, a great listener, loving, romantic, but for some reason woman treat me like honeysuckle. I can't figure it out and I'm scared to death of dying alone. I don't want to fight with a girl, I just want to love and be loved. It's really that simple and it's all I want and for some reason God says I can't have that.