Doubt The Rabbit
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Yeah so this info dump might sound a little OOC for me, but anyway, if you've read a couple of my other posts you probably know that my sister is in the hospital right now and has been for the past five days. She has a very rare disease, so rare that her strain is the only one found in medical history. So obviously no one knows what to do with her.
Going to the hospital with her is not a new thing for us. In fact, this year alone we have been in the hospital once every month (and twice last month) for a new symptom a new worry. Now she's not eating, so we had to go back in on Thursday.
Today I got a text from my mother telling me that her heart rate is dropping. She's been transfered to the ICU and she won't walke up. These days I feel like there's a very large chance she could die.
I feel like a huge dick. Not only am I kind of numb to this news (I'm upset but it's a dull kind of pain), but I have the nerve to also be upset about things like school or my social life throughout these past five years of her being sick.
I go to the hospital every day. I see her. I take care of her. I'm basically her second parent, considering our father isn't really interested in doing it. Every day I see how she's constantly getting worse and in more and more pain. I know I can't help her situation, but does that really give me the right to be disconnected and self-centered?
Going to the hospital with her is not a new thing for us. In fact, this year alone we have been in the hospital once every month (and twice last month) for a new symptom a new worry. Now she's not eating, so we had to go back in on Thursday.
Today I got a text from my mother telling me that her heart rate is dropping. She's been transfered to the ICU and she won't walke up. These days I feel like there's a very large chance she could die.
I feel like a huge dick. Not only am I kind of numb to this news (I'm upset but it's a dull kind of pain), but I have the nerve to also be upset about things like school or my social life throughout these past five years of her being sick.
I go to the hospital every day. I see her. I take care of her. I'm basically her second parent, considering our father isn't really interested in doing it. Every day I see how she's constantly getting worse and in more and more pain. I know I can't help her situation, but does that really give me the right to be disconnected and self-centered?