My life was perfect, i was happy, till today. We had today the most important soccer game and we didn't won it because of me(we had a draw game 1;1). The ball just accidentally bounced of my hand, then the opposite team got penalty and scored a goal. And now they all kinda hate me, including myself. It sucks. That game was really important. Why the hell had I screw it up? I can't stop thinking about it. I always expect myself to do all things correctly. Why did i have to make such a mistake now? I love football very much but i really dont go to the training. It would be even worse, if i wouldn't go. I hate to see them ignore me, life really sucks. I can't belive i blow my life up with like 1 minute. At the moment i feel really lonely and I truly hate myself.