i actually got off my arse after years of poor self esteem and laziness, and i pitched my ideas to the manager of a very successful local bar. he loved them so much and actually has got so much faith in me that he has given me prime slot on a friday night!! oh my ******* God, i can't believe that someone has got so much faith in me, that actually believes that i can pull this venture off. i am dumbfounded! i am shocked that i have achieved this. even if my night does flop, to have gotten this far is a massive achievement for me. i have been given the precious gift of self belief and i am so happy and chuffed to bits. no longer do i feel the black sheep and failure, i can now shrug those labels off. i was a girl that would be too shy to speak to anyone, now i am a manager and business entrepreneur.