Wessik
Well-known member
I have recently stopped taking all of my medications. It has been approximately three months now, and I feel very different from the way I did before. It is like having to adjust to life all over again from the ground up. I had been on medication since the second grade, so this is the first time in eighteen years since I have been on absolutely no medication. It is a strange experience.
The main thing that I have had to deal with is stress management. Withdrawal was incredibly difficult, but I managed satisfactorily. Unfortunately, there seems to be a higher base current of stress in day-to-day life than there was before I stopped taking the medication.
I attribute this to one factor: My breathing has become somewhat irregular. What I mean by this is that in certain situations, my breath seems to unconsciously restrict myself. So for example, in situations where I am using the computer, I must put forth additional conscious effort to breathe at a steady pace. If I do not, I will start to get searing headaches and eventually, panic attacks.
My social life has changed somewhat as well. During these three months, it has basically taken a turn for the worse. In fact, I liken the decline in my social skills to losing several years of social "experience". It is as if I have forgotten several years of social "knowledge", and have been slowly clawing my back to being at the level I was just three years ago!
This was especially disappointing, considering I had explosive amounts of growth in the last two years alone. Nevertheless, in three months, I feel that I have recovered perhaps about 60-80% of the social knowledge that I had lost.
I will be attending College come spring semester. That's good, I guess. it's been a while since I have been in college, and I will be studying mathematics. Between you and me, and really suck at mathematics.
Yes, I know, I would probably excel much more at something like a literature degree, but I am choosing math. Why? I guess because I can't stand the idea that there is something that I suck at. I don't care if my natural talents lie in more linguistic areas! I want to be a math professor!!!!DD!1
Thank you all for taking the time to listen to me. I've been on burnout for the last couple of days, but I should be contributing a bit more regularly now.(On second thought, I might have trouble contributing to the site regularly. It appears that my Verizon service has been cancelled, and so my Cell Phone no longer has internet access. I am writing from the desktop right now though! Good thing I downloaded all that por-er-stress relief material. Yeah, let's go with that. XD)
The main thing that I have had to deal with is stress management. Withdrawal was incredibly difficult, but I managed satisfactorily. Unfortunately, there seems to be a higher base current of stress in day-to-day life than there was before I stopped taking the medication.
I attribute this to one factor: My breathing has become somewhat irregular. What I mean by this is that in certain situations, my breath seems to unconsciously restrict myself. So for example, in situations where I am using the computer, I must put forth additional conscious effort to breathe at a steady pace. If I do not, I will start to get searing headaches and eventually, panic attacks.
My social life has changed somewhat as well. During these three months, it has basically taken a turn for the worse. In fact, I liken the decline in my social skills to losing several years of social "experience". It is as if I have forgotten several years of social "knowledge", and have been slowly clawing my back to being at the level I was just three years ago!
This was especially disappointing, considering I had explosive amounts of growth in the last two years alone. Nevertheless, in three months, I feel that I have recovered perhaps about 60-80% of the social knowledge that I had lost.
I will be attending College come spring semester. That's good, I guess. it's been a while since I have been in college, and I will be studying mathematics. Between you and me, and really suck at mathematics.
Yes, I know, I would probably excel much more at something like a literature degree, but I am choosing math. Why? I guess because I can't stand the idea that there is something that I suck at. I don't care if my natural talents lie in more linguistic areas! I want to be a math professor!!!!
DD!1Thank you all for taking the time to listen to me. I've been on burnout for the last couple of days, but I should be contributing a bit more regularly now.(On second thought, I might have trouble contributing to the site regularly. It appears that my Verizon service has been cancelled, and so my Cell Phone no longer has internet access. I am writing from the desktop right now though! Good thing I downloaded all that por-er-stress relief material. Yeah, let's go with that. XD)
