Nghtrain36
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Okay after almost a year of trying I finally got my first girlfriend! I thought I would be happy after saying that sentence to myself, but now I'm seriously confused as it's nothing I thought it was. I don't know if I just understood girls wrong or what but my girlfriend is nothing at all like I thought she would be.
It started off with her just jumping right in and asking me if I wanted to date her right away. She had only seen one picture of me and other than that knows absolutely nothing of me. Then, the exact same day she started dating me, she starts saying she loves me! Honestly I don't think she knows who she loves. Then I got yelled at a little by her wierd little sister for not saying it back. I don't want to say something I don't mean to her (I don't like to lie, especially to my girlfriend. Not the best way to start a relationship!) but eventually I forced myself to say it back in hopes that maybe I can berid myself of the guilt at some point. She texts me often, but she has nothing to say at all!! She wants me to call her every hour of the day, so I unfortunately had to lie to her and tell her that I don't have the money to be talking too long over the phone. She wasn't too happy about that.
I want to live my life but she has other plans. All the time she wants me to talk to her about nothing. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!! When she calls I notice that I actually end up talking to her crazy sister (who's basically a 5 year old annoying little girl) more than my girlfriend because her sister never wants to shut up for 5 minutes and let me talk to her. I don't want to make an ass of myself by asking to talk with my girlfriend, that would seem rather rude of me. And even if I do get to talk with her she has nothing to say as usual. She doesn't tell me anything about herself (partially my fault because I think it's kinda out-of-line to ask) and shows little emotion to me. The only thing I know about her is that she likes to skate (roller skates not skateboard) which doesn't help at all because personally I despise skating. Not to mention she laughs too much, whereas I don't even really have a sense of humor so I tend to kill any possible happy moments. Why do girls laugh about everything? I mean seriously!
The worst part of it all is that she has no idea that I'm possibly one of my county's biggest nerds and therefor may be seriously rejected by her because of it. She has no idea who she's dating and she's being too clingy, but I don't want to wreck my only hope of getting a real relationship going by telling her exactly who she's dating. But at the same time she doesn't even bother to ask anything about me so I wonder if she just likes me because I look good or something. She did say that my picture was "sexy". I don't know what to do with her. Does anyone have a suggestion as to how I decode her? I don't want to keep telling her I love her if I really don't!!! (Oh and by the way, I live a bit of a ways away from her so physical contact might seem unlikely)
It started off with her just jumping right in and asking me if I wanted to date her right away. She had only seen one picture of me and other than that knows absolutely nothing of me. Then, the exact same day she started dating me, she starts saying she loves me! Honestly I don't think she knows who she loves. Then I got yelled at a little by her wierd little sister for not saying it back. I don't want to say something I don't mean to her (I don't like to lie, especially to my girlfriend. Not the best way to start a relationship!) but eventually I forced myself to say it back in hopes that maybe I can berid myself of the guilt at some point. She texts me often, but she has nothing to say at all!! She wants me to call her every hour of the day, so I unfortunately had to lie to her and tell her that I don't have the money to be talking too long over the phone. She wasn't too happy about that.
I want to live my life but she has other plans. All the time she wants me to talk to her about nothing. ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!!! When she calls I notice that I actually end up talking to her crazy sister (who's basically a 5 year old annoying little girl) more than my girlfriend because her sister never wants to shut up for 5 minutes and let me talk to her. I don't want to make an ass of myself by asking to talk with my girlfriend, that would seem rather rude of me. And even if I do get to talk with her she has nothing to say as usual. She doesn't tell me anything about herself (partially my fault because I think it's kinda out-of-line to ask) and shows little emotion to me. The only thing I know about her is that she likes to skate (roller skates not skateboard) which doesn't help at all because personally I despise skating. Not to mention she laughs too much, whereas I don't even really have a sense of humor so I tend to kill any possible happy moments. Why do girls laugh about everything? I mean seriously!
The worst part of it all is that she has no idea that I'm possibly one of my county's biggest nerds and therefor may be seriously rejected by her because of it. She has no idea who she's dating and she's being too clingy, but I don't want to wreck my only hope of getting a real relationship going by telling her exactly who she's dating. But at the same time she doesn't even bother to ask anything about me so I wonder if she just likes me because I look good or something. She did say that my picture was "sexy". I don't know what to do with her. Does anyone have a suggestion as to how I decode her? I don't want to keep telling her I love her if I really don't!!! (Oh and by the way, I live a bit of a ways away from her so physical contact might seem unlikely)