CenotaphGirl
Under the dirt, that’s my home ⚰️
Ugh my ex moved on, it's so hard... it is so bloody hard
He broke up with me after he put me in hospital, he left me in the hospital heart broken,
I was suicidal at the time, I got transferred to a mental health unit... 3 weeks later I was out.
He still looks after me in some ways, picks me up after work, comes over whenever I ask.
Now he's with her....like officially
I wanna explode, I cant handle seeing him with her, it actually makes me feel nuts with jealousy.
I texted him this long message about his daughter (not my biological child) and blah blah,
He texted me back only about his daughter, like nothing to do with us...
I just boldly said "oh, dont miss me then?" He put "what are you trying to do here?"
I felt like responding to that would make me look weak...So I didn't.
I called his brother instead and asked him if he misses me lol (nuts with jealousy)
and his brother was like yeah he still misses you,
That has settled me, but I feel so annoyed with myself.
Annoyed that I still care, annoyed that im still the same when it comes to him.
His brother has been texting me that this new girl is nothing like me, and nothing I have to worry about
I feel so toxic, I know I cant be with him so why cant I just be happy for him?
My ex said he will always be there, pick me up whenever, come over whenever but he's with her,
and I have to accept it....
Life is laughing at me, no matter what I do, I will never be happy...
I'm ill at the moment, but I asked him to come over at 11:00 am, I don't even know what im gonna say...
I wanna say that I don't want him to be with her, but I cant even think of a good reason why...
I've been up all night acting out our convo which is now only 4 ish hours away, so excuse the venting...
He broke up with me after he put me in hospital, he left me in the hospital heart broken,
I was suicidal at the time, I got transferred to a mental health unit... 3 weeks later I was out.
He still looks after me in some ways, picks me up after work, comes over whenever I ask.
Now he's with her....like officially
I wanna explode, I cant handle seeing him with her, it actually makes me feel nuts with jealousy.
I texted him this long message about his daughter (not my biological child) and blah blah,
He texted me back only about his daughter, like nothing to do with us...
I just boldly said "oh, dont miss me then?" He put "what are you trying to do here?"
I felt like responding to that would make me look weak...So I didn't.
I called his brother instead and asked him if he misses me lol (nuts with jealousy)
and his brother was like yeah he still misses you,
That has settled me, but I feel so annoyed with myself.
Annoyed that I still care, annoyed that im still the same when it comes to him.
His brother has been texting me that this new girl is nothing like me, and nothing I have to worry about
I feel so toxic, I know I cant be with him so why cant I just be happy for him?
My ex said he will always be there, pick me up whenever, come over whenever but he's with her,
and I have to accept it....
Life is laughing at me, no matter what I do, I will never be happy...
I'm ill at the moment, but I asked him to come over at 11:00 am, I don't even know what im gonna say...
I wanna say that I don't want him to be with her, but I cant even think of a good reason why...
I've been up all night acting out our convo which is now only 4 ish hours away, so excuse the venting...