penguin
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im a loser. and im coming to the realization that i just have to quit trying to fight it and that i need to accept it.
ive never been able to hold down a job. ive never been able to follow though with anything. i barely graduated highschool, and who even cares about that, i mean everybody (most normal people) graduate HS, its nothing to be that excited about. im in my late 20's and im just now starting college. but its community college. nothing to be all that proud of.
"wow you are almost 30 and just STARTING college"........
ive never had much luck with women. ive had several relationships but none ever pan out. no kids, never married. im in a relationship now but its winding down. were sick of each other but its complicated since we have little money and live together. we rarely have sex.
i feel stupid everyday. i struggle in all my classes. im in "introductory algebra", meaning lower math. im terrible at it. i have to stay late everyday with the teacher so she can try to get it to make sense to me. i goto tutoring. yeah, tutoring. i dont see everybody else having to goto tutoring. this reinforces that yes, im stupid.
im uncomfortable in all my classes. i dont talk to anybody or have much at all of a social life. i drink beer and watch tv. and even that is getting old. i like football, but no matter what team i root for, they lose. i dont even know why i bother cause it just upsets me.
i feel like im here to validate everybody elses happiness and success in life. to have winners, we must have losers. well, im the loser. im so sick of being "happy" for everybody else and their victories.
"we got married. we are having a baby. i met a new girlfriend. i graduated college. i got promoted at my job. im making more money. i bought something nice."..............yeah well F you. F you. i dont care. those are all things im never going to get to do so F you. why should i be happy for you? why?
im stuck sitting on the sidelines of life, watching everybody else get to have all the fun.
ive never been able to hold down a job. ive never been able to follow though with anything. i barely graduated highschool, and who even cares about that, i mean everybody (most normal people) graduate HS, its nothing to be that excited about. im in my late 20's and im just now starting college. but its community college. nothing to be all that proud of.
"wow you are almost 30 and just STARTING college"........
ive never had much luck with women. ive had several relationships but none ever pan out. no kids, never married. im in a relationship now but its winding down. were sick of each other but its complicated since we have little money and live together. we rarely have sex.
i feel stupid everyday. i struggle in all my classes. im in "introductory algebra", meaning lower math. im terrible at it. i have to stay late everyday with the teacher so she can try to get it to make sense to me. i goto tutoring. yeah, tutoring. i dont see everybody else having to goto tutoring. this reinforces that yes, im stupid.
im uncomfortable in all my classes. i dont talk to anybody or have much at all of a social life. i drink beer and watch tv. and even that is getting old. i like football, but no matter what team i root for, they lose. i dont even know why i bother cause it just upsets me.
i feel like im here to validate everybody elses happiness and success in life. to have winners, we must have losers. well, im the loser. im so sick of being "happy" for everybody else and their victories.
"we got married. we are having a baby. i met a new girlfriend. i graduated college. i got promoted at my job. im making more money. i bought something nice."..............yeah well F you. F you. i dont care. those are all things im never going to get to do so F you. why should i be happy for you? why?
im stuck sitting on the sidelines of life, watching everybody else get to have all the fun.