LongWolfFang
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It's honestly getting to the stage where I'm feeling numb to it for all the wrong reasons. Seems like no matter how I meet these people (whether IRL, old friends, online or through gaming and other mutual interests), it always ends up the same: I'm the one caring too much and investing the time into the friendship. I'm not the "give and expect something of equal value back" type, but friendships by nature shouldn't have one person put in all the effort. It gets tiring to be there for friends when they come whining at your feet about their problems or they strike a conversation/send you a message only to talk about what's going on in their lives and their interests (you give them your undivided attention, too), only to get their disinterest to your life and other stuff in return when you want an ear. After it gets to that intolerable point, I always just resolve to saying "screw you" and stop talking to them. I used to feel so bad doing that, but now, I'm even numb to that feeling and just don't care anymore.
It's happened to me so much to where it's causing me to neglect the importance of the things in my own life -- like the world's telling me nothing I do, say or feel is as important as everyone else's life since no one listens. I can't even give people I hardly know a straight answer anymore when they ask me questions about myself, because I'm so used to not being asked such things on a regular basis. But at the same time, I've lost that much trust and respect in people to let them in on personal details...
I'm not trying to making this long-winded though, so I'll just cut that off here before I get more carried away. Sorry for the ramble.
It's happened to me so much to where it's causing me to neglect the importance of the things in my own life -- like the world's telling me nothing I do, say or feel is as important as everyone else's life since no one listens. I can't even give people I hardly know a straight answer anymore when they ask me questions about myself, because I'm so used to not being asked such things on a regular basis. But at the same time, I've lost that much trust and respect in people to let them in on personal details...
I'm not trying to making this long-winded though, so I'll just cut that off here before I get more carried away. Sorry for the ramble.