ITellYouHhwut
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If ever I get a true third-person look at myself, like in candid photos/videos, I just about break down, and crumble on the inside. It is positively devastating to see what I look like. I’m so goddamn ugly. Not just ugly, but weird looking. It’s impossible to describe. You just have to see me to really know.
I can’t believe people even speak to, or interact with me at all with as utterly hideous as I am. It’s just freaking crazy. It’s beyond the scope of normal ugly. I’m on another level completely.
Most people would say, “well everyone looks at pictures or videos of themselves and hates the way they look.” No no, this is so much different. It’s just appalling how intensely ugly and botched I look.
My mouth has this weird way in which it moves, and I’ve got these gigantic teeth that stick out so egregiously. It’s horrible. My jawline is awful. I’ve got these strange-looking eye sockets and cheek structure. I was born with severe pectus excavatum, which gives me a curved back, flared ribs, pot belly, and just a weird overall shape. My hair is this thin, balding, oily, scraggly crap that looks like dirt on top of my head. Facial hair is the same. Looks like oily, scraggly, dirt on my face.
I look at virtually all other people, at they all at least have a “cohesive” look to them that at least works and looks normal. But I just have this super botched, weird look to me. I look like you cut pieces off of 20 people and just pasted them all together.
I look at other people and they’re always photogenic. They have a normal look to them. Me, I can’t even take a picture. I have to run away from cameras.
I just happened to be browsing through pictures/videos of myself on my computer last night, and just about died looking at them. I thought, this is how people see me all the time? Holy honeysuckle! No wonder no girl has ever wanted me, and they look at me like I’m a freak.
I can’t believe people even speak to, or interact with me at all with as utterly hideous as I am. It’s just freaking crazy. It’s beyond the scope of normal ugly. I’m on another level completely.
Most people would say, “well everyone looks at pictures or videos of themselves and hates the way they look.” No no, this is so much different. It’s just appalling how intensely ugly and botched I look.
My mouth has this weird way in which it moves, and I’ve got these gigantic teeth that stick out so egregiously. It’s horrible. My jawline is awful. I’ve got these strange-looking eye sockets and cheek structure. I was born with severe pectus excavatum, which gives me a curved back, flared ribs, pot belly, and just a weird overall shape. My hair is this thin, balding, oily, scraggly crap that looks like dirt on top of my head. Facial hair is the same. Looks like oily, scraggly, dirt on my face.
I look at virtually all other people, at they all at least have a “cohesive” look to them that at least works and looks normal. But I just have this super botched, weird look to me. I look like you cut pieces off of 20 people and just pasted them all together.
I look at other people and they’re always photogenic. They have a normal look to them. Me, I can’t even take a picture. I have to run away from cameras.
I just happened to be browsing through pictures/videos of myself on my computer last night, and just about died looking at them. I thought, this is how people see me all the time? Holy honeysuckle! No wonder no girl has ever wanted me, and they look at me like I’m a freak.