Hey everyone, thought I'd come back to this great place cuz' im feelin' a bit off the rails at the mo!
Anyway, those of you that have read some of my previous stuff will know that I've been finding it hard to find out what path I really want to take from life, with what options to take and all that sorta stuff.
Anyway, I gave University a try and after a week I decided I wasnt happy with it, there was a lot of reasons but I don't feel I have the rights to ***** about it because theres many different approaches to Uni, and not just the *Waahhooo lets party and get wasted* mentality, so I will probably eventually go back to finish my degree as an older student, maybe having my own place and a job whilst I finish my studies.
Bummer is that we're in a recession so now I have to really work my ass off to get work and keep myself occupied. Its weird because I felt kinda lonely when I was here for the summer, and I still felt lonely at Uni, it's astonishing how you can be around so many people, yet it wouldn't make you feel any less lonely if you can't even find one person there you truly relate to.
Anyway, I'm lying in bed here now wondering how things will turn out for me, and how hard it will really be for me to get a job or just keep myself occupied around here. I sometimes get these horrible feelings in my gut that comes when I get anxious from thinking and worrying a lot, makes me feel kinda helpless, but anyway I know the responsabilities that would come if I decided not to go through with it, and I'm going to **** well uphold them.
I plan to eventually get a place with my girlfriend when I earn enough money, and do some travelling to which I've really been looking forward to. Thinking about this is what will help me through this tough time I'm in at the moment, but I really can't complain because at the end of the day I decided to take the risk, I decided I'd rather choose to be more happy but at the costs of the current risks there are. I beleive I can get through this if I'm truthfull to myself and others around me.
Peace x
Anyway, those of you that have read some of my previous stuff will know that I've been finding it hard to find out what path I really want to take from life, with what options to take and all that sorta stuff.
Anyway, I gave University a try and after a week I decided I wasnt happy with it, there was a lot of reasons but I don't feel I have the rights to ***** about it because theres many different approaches to Uni, and not just the *Waahhooo lets party and get wasted* mentality, so I will probably eventually go back to finish my degree as an older student, maybe having my own place and a job whilst I finish my studies.
Bummer is that we're in a recession so now I have to really work my ass off to get work and keep myself occupied. Its weird because I felt kinda lonely when I was here for the summer, and I still felt lonely at Uni, it's astonishing how you can be around so many people, yet it wouldn't make you feel any less lonely if you can't even find one person there you truly relate to.
Anyway, I'm lying in bed here now wondering how things will turn out for me, and how hard it will really be for me to get a job or just keep myself occupied around here. I sometimes get these horrible feelings in my gut that comes when I get anxious from thinking and worrying a lot, makes me feel kinda helpless, but anyway I know the responsabilities that would come if I decided not to go through with it, and I'm going to **** well uphold them.
I plan to eventually get a place with my girlfriend when I earn enough money, and do some travelling to which I've really been looking forward to. Thinking about this is what will help me through this tough time I'm in at the moment, but I really can't complain because at the end of the day I decided to take the risk, I decided I'd rather choose to be more happy but at the costs of the current risks there are. I beleive I can get through this if I'm truthfull to myself and others around me.
Peace x
