„Yes, they're sharing a drink they call "loneliness", but it's better than drinking alone“
…so i dared to sign up here and share my loneliness, after having another moment of struggle, tears, pain and crisis being completely alone, which made google many many sites, groups, forums about lonely broken hearts, looking for some kind of right place to vent, til i found this page.
Too bad i needed to wait for approval, because i really needed to write this words some hours ago, to be exact at 4am, so i could release a bit of this chaos and then try finally to sleep. Anyway, i’m here, i read some of the topics and i think i finally found people like me, as well as a space where i can be understood and not lightly judged, at least not by the friendly active members who reply many of the topics in a helpful way.
Just for the record, i’m a mexican girl on her very late 20’s, sort of trilingual (sp-en-ger), already auntie of the most beautiful, intelligent and charming 2yr old little boy ever, i’m single tho my heart is forever taken, and despite a deep depression and endless problems, i’m mostly making jokes and laughing a lot, i’m super witty!, friendly, easygoing, i’m pretending to be normal every single day, i try to keep my head and myself busy with any silly, simple or exciting thing/activity, with the only purpose to hold on one more day.
Between those things i use as a surviving tool are my fave TV series such as Castle, Revenge, Bones, Criminal Minds, CSI NY, Charmed, Gilmore Girls, Simpsons etc, maybe some of u already noticed something because of my nickname
…I also like bike-riding a lot!, helping and loving cats, reading, swimming, being on the beach, languages, traveling (specially with trains), all about Ireland, also Germany and Greenland (but less), having long conversations off and online, that between other likes, tho I cannot do a lot of them as often as i would love to. I have an eco-green, helping others and pro-animal mindset. Music, singing, musical instruments, songwriting are my life’s passion, but i never did it professionally and probably never will.
I suffer from a clinical depression, low self-esteem, anxiety and some strange phobias, however if some sees me or talk to me in my everyday life, i look as a perfectly normal person. My weekly routine is pretty much monotone, being on PC during the morning, then dressing me up to go to work on TV, then i come back to eat something, then more PC and watching some tv, then a simple dinner, then music and PC, and maybe a bit songwriting or watching Castle online, before finally going to sleep around 2, 3 or 4 am. On the weekends maybe i come up with something spontaneous or different, but not always. Taking care of my sweet cat Vito Corleone is the only special thing that really cheers me up and put some joy in my broken heart during the day.
I have a very complicated and unconventional story of course, with a man of course, from another country of course, and in case you wonder, yes we met and i lived 1 yr in his country, but right now that’s too long and too painful to tell and to remember, i’m not prepared for that on a forum, i just want to be here and have a bit company, to feel that not everyone ignores me, but actually some people care somehow about this invisible stranger. I do have best friends, who love me and really care about me, but they are also struggling a lot with their own problems and they live unafortunately in other states or countries.
Well, i think that’s a substantial introduction to get a first glimpse of me, isn’t it? feel free to contact me, i normally don’t tend to bite on the 1st conversation.
Regards from a solitary girl.
p.s. I have done this several times before, tho never as extensive as now, but it was just not on the right forums, so i quitted them after a few posts.
…so i dared to sign up here and share my loneliness, after having another moment of struggle, tears, pain and crisis being completely alone, which made google many many sites, groups, forums about lonely broken hearts, looking for some kind of right place to vent, til i found this page.
Too bad i needed to wait for approval, because i really needed to write this words some hours ago, to be exact at 4am, so i could release a bit of this chaos and then try finally to sleep. Anyway, i’m here, i read some of the topics and i think i finally found people like me, as well as a space where i can be understood and not lightly judged, at least not by the friendly active members who reply many of the topics in a helpful way.
Just for the record, i’m a mexican girl on her very late 20’s, sort of trilingual (sp-en-ger), already auntie of the most beautiful, intelligent and charming 2yr old little boy ever, i’m single tho my heart is forever taken, and despite a deep depression and endless problems, i’m mostly making jokes and laughing a lot, i’m super witty!, friendly, easygoing, i’m pretending to be normal every single day, i try to keep my head and myself busy with any silly, simple or exciting thing/activity, with the only purpose to hold on one more day.
Between those things i use as a surviving tool are my fave TV series such as Castle, Revenge, Bones, Criminal Minds, CSI NY, Charmed, Gilmore Girls, Simpsons etc, maybe some of u already noticed something because of my nickname
…I also like bike-riding a lot!, helping and loving cats, reading, swimming, being on the beach, languages, traveling (specially with trains), all about Ireland, also Germany and Greenland (but less), having long conversations off and online, that between other likes, tho I cannot do a lot of them as often as i would love to. I have an eco-green, helping others and pro-animal mindset. Music, singing, musical instruments, songwriting are my life’s passion, but i never did it professionally and probably never will.I suffer from a clinical depression, low self-esteem, anxiety and some strange phobias, however if some sees me or talk to me in my everyday life, i look as a perfectly normal person. My weekly routine is pretty much monotone, being on PC during the morning, then dressing me up to go to work on TV, then i come back to eat something, then more PC and watching some tv, then a simple dinner, then music and PC, and maybe a bit songwriting or watching Castle online, before finally going to sleep around 2, 3 or 4 am. On the weekends maybe i come up with something spontaneous or different, but not always. Taking care of my sweet cat Vito Corleone is the only special thing that really cheers me up and put some joy in my broken heart during the day.
I have a very complicated and unconventional story of course, with a man of course, from another country of course, and in case you wonder, yes we met and i lived 1 yr in his country, but right now that’s too long and too painful to tell and to remember, i’m not prepared for that on a forum, i just want to be here and have a bit company, to feel that not everyone ignores me, but actually some people care somehow about this invisible stranger. I do have best friends, who love me and really care about me, but they are also struggling a lot with their own problems and they live unafortunately in other states or countries.
Well, i think that’s a substantial introduction to get a first glimpse of me, isn’t it?
feel free to contact me, i normally don’t tend to bite on the 1st conversation.Regards from a solitary girl.
p.s. I have done this several times before, tho never as extensive as now, but it was just not on the right forums, so i quitted them after a few posts.
