Am I insane to try or just insane?

[bish33]

I’m new to all this so forgive me for the errors and probably constant babbling.
I like everyone else on the site has there own problems. That is how I found this site. While looking through it, I found a post of a woman I dated for a few months this past summer. This woman is someone I fell for fast and hard. Not something I wanted or planned. It ended and I became a pain in the ass to her. Sending emails all the time, trying to figure out what I had done. I just saw us as a great match. Well not that you need me to tell you. All my excessive emails did was push her away more.

The problems she wrote about, was something I did know about. It has gotten worse since we split. When I read it, I started to rehash a lot of feelings for her. I contacted her just to say I am here for her to talk. I didn’t explain well enough I don’t think how I came by the posts. That I hope doesn’t matter anyway. I guess I am curious to others opinions if I should have even mentioned I had seen it or written her in the first place?

I know there will never be anything between us again. I blew that shot. I don’t know if I would really want anything. We have tried to remain friends, but I have trust issues. Well I feel she broke that trust. So now we don’t talk at all. I would like to be at least one person she can come to and cry, vent or just sit there quietly. I hate writing this because there is a chance she will read it. I hope I have made it clear to anyone that reads this though. Your comments may help her understand or maybe I need to understand.

 

[evanescencefan91]

hey bish33 welcome to the forum, i'm sorry about the bad breakup, sometimes seems love is a sick game of chance destined to destroy itself.

I hope things get better for you

 

[Lonesome Crow]

well...I get ya.

I feel sort of the same way about my ex-gf.
And I been gettng re triggers of emotional roller coater.
I lived with her for over 12 years...so bascailly she was my wife.lol
We didn't need devoirced..man. She freaken cleared out my bank account.

Acceptence is a son of a *****.

Are you trying to re-negociate or bargin ?

It's weird..dude. I had break up sex with her probably hundreds of
times...and it was probably some of the best sex I had with her.lol
Did you go through that stage ?

maybe that's what's you're going through or trying to do
or you want manke up sex....i dunno

Don't trip...man, break up aren't easy

Sometime a clean break is a better.

 

[bish33]

well...I get ya.

I feel sort of the same way about my ex-gf.
And I been gettng re triggers of emotional roller coater.
I lived with her for over 12 years...so bascailly my wife.lol

Acceptence is a son of a *****.

Are you trying to re-negociate or bargin ?

It's weird..dude. I had break up sex with her probably hundreds of
times...and it was probably some of the best sex I had with her.lol
Did you go through that stage ?

maybe that's what's you're going through or trying to do
or you want manke up sex....i dunno

Don't trip...man, break up aren't easy

Sometime a clean break is a better.

Thanks,
Actually that part of our relationship was great. lol I don't want make up sex or anything like that. I more or less want to know if I should try to keep in contact with her due to her problems. This has nothing to do with us, I just want this to be about her. I am worried for her. I have pushed her away so I don't think she will accept my help. Was I wrong in still trying to offer it

 

[Lonesome Crow]

well...I get ya.

I feel sort of the same way about my ex-gf.
And I been gettng re triggers of emotional roller coater.
I lived with her for over 12 years...so bascailly my wife.lol

Acceptence is a son of a *****.

Are you trying to re-negociate or bargin ?

It's weird..dude. I had break up sex with her probably hundreds of
times...and it was probably some of the best sex I had with her.lol
Did you go through that stage ?

maybe that's what's you're going through or trying to do
or you want manke up sex....i dunno

Don't trip...man, break up aren't easy

Sometime a clean break is a better.

Thanks,
Actually that part of our relationship was great. lol I don't want make up sex or anything like that. I more or less want to know if I should try to keep in contact with her due to her problems. This has nothing to do with us, I just want this to be about her. I am worried for her. I have pushed her away so I don't think she will accept my help. Was I wrong in still trying to offer it

I can't really give you advice...but I v'e been refocusing on myself
and trying to do what I have to do and take care of myself.

I actaully hated my ex-with a passion too.
I can't fix her..I can't make her love me or accept me.
I love her with all my heart and I never thought it would
turn out this way....accepting things as they are was hard
for me.

Maybe someday i might be able to make my amends to her.
My part in it...how I hurted her.
If it's today..I'm willing to do that.

But I still have to move on with my life.
So many girls and so little time

The past 5 years had been all about her.
Her gambling, her alcoholism, her recovery, her spiritaul awakening.

Well...It's all about me..me..me now....**** it!!