Well it's been a long time - 7 years to be exact. I didn't realise so many people had left comments for me. 'He' shut me down completely, crushed my spirit, destroyed my soul, took away my joy in living and suffocated me completely. I now know he was (is) a fully paid up member of the Narcissists movement ! too much to explain, but they are evil, cruel people who kill you slowly and smile while they are doing it.
Long story short, I'm now alone since January, and trying to 'heal', it's not easy, the emotional scars go deep, but I have my life back and I am free !
Financially it's a real struggle, but well worth it to have my life back.
I'm considering starting a small business, yes even at my age ! but it's not easy, help, advice etc., all seems to be geared towards the young, but I'll hang on in there.
I still feel like an empty shell, but this will pass I know, years of abuse, neglect and toxic behaviour can't be cured in an instant. I now have hope for the future and am enjoying hobbies I haven't been able to do for years ! Looking forward to coming back often and 'chatting', I don't have friends because no one liked him, so I have to build on that.
Ninjacat