Sounds like you're kinda set on the basics. Food, shelter, income. If you're not happy with what you have possession wise, that's easy enough to fix. It seems you're happy enough with what you have, so what do you think triggered the recent thinking? Are you an idealist and upset the world doesn't work like you think it should? Or is it more of a searching for some meaning in life? I have also been at a points in my life where I just say, screw it, I'm ok with being immature for a few minutes and then have my lil hissy fit temper tantrum about how the whole world is not to my liking. I hope this is helping someone lol, I feel silly at times trying to help when I'm such a mess myself. Hope you find some new\old coping mechanisms that work. Practicing gratitude got me through my 20's, but it wasn't an instant fix. Took some time, but it helped me at one point in life(still does). Hope something made\makes you laugh today!