so for me anyway maybe not for everyone... i have no friends..despite being cool fun outgoing..doesn't matter...everyone hates me, puts me down..calls me quiet/shy no matter what i do, even if i talk for hours on end at the end they say 'youre so QUIETTT" idiots...scumbags. worst part is.my ONLY friends are my WORST enemies...its just a sick irony in life....my evil cruel family that has destroyed my life...are the ONLY people in m ylife...imagine that??? why the hell is this??? who set the bar for this sick universe? its weird how people FLOCK to my mother...she is liek the devil...i mean sure to them she's nice but there is nothing great about her. but me? everyone just AVOIDS me ignores me and treats me like im 'special' ie 'special ed' or something. even my brothers ex wife lived int he same city as me, and NEVER hung out with me...she was so mean to me, but she had her own friends and never invited me anywhere. i foudn that so strange....people are exceptionally CRUEL to me ..anything that is cruel they are to me. worse, people are only in my life if they can abuse me, use me, or do something horrible to me nothing else. if i sya...hey stop doing that to me-- they call me crazy or names, try to gaslight me or bail---this is the only story of my life nothing else. i can't make friends no matter what i do and the only people trapped in my horrible life are my cruel sadistic family....who are controlling monsters evil and who have destroyed me already. i cant get a boyfriend despite being relaly hot and only bad things happen to me...so why is it that people LOVE everyone else but HATE people like me for no reason? why do people love weird mean or strange people but hate cool normal people.....im in my early 30's and my mother is my ONLY FRIEND???? she isnt a friend shes a monster and my worst enemy.....who the fuk wrote the script for this awful life anyway. i used to believe God would help me and give me justice, bu i learned....God only helps my abusers get better lives and more power so they can keep destroying me....its a weird sick world....