Anyone else grew up as an only child here?
I find that being alone most of the time I had to invent a definition of fun that did not require being around others. Meanwhile it became preferable to think for myself and analyze existence. Being alone and being with others has a very different mentality. I generally find there is more potential for intellectual development in being alone. In my experience with those who had a lot of siblings things were always chaotic and there was no time to think.
Now 20 years later here I am, alone yet again. I don't know anyone, I don't relate to anyone, and despite thinking about things nearly all the time I don't have a clue where I belong in life or how to get there. Most I can seem to do is emphasize my talents and what I enjoy. My lonely disposition leads me to be nice to people, but also invites me to be ripped off by them, which has happened too many times to count.
I find that being alone most of the time I had to invent a definition of fun that did not require being around others. Meanwhile it became preferable to think for myself and analyze existence. Being alone and being with others has a very different mentality. I generally find there is more potential for intellectual development in being alone. In my experience with those who had a lot of siblings things were always chaotic and there was no time to think.
Now 20 years later here I am, alone yet again. I don't know anyone, I don't relate to anyone, and despite thinking about things nearly all the time I don't have a clue where I belong in life or how to get there. Most I can seem to do is emphasize my talents and what I enjoy. My lonely disposition leads me to be nice to people, but also invites me to be ripped off by them, which has happened too many times to count.