I need help. My parents may be heading for divorce. My dad has depression except, instead of getting sad he gets angry. My mom has a low self esteem. He hounds on that, hurting her in more ways than I care to list.
About 5 years ago he got angry at the dog and started screaming. He pulled a gun screaming that he was going to shoot the dog. My mom was holding the dog, crying hysterically. I was only about 10 11.
I couldn't physically fight my dad and win. I haven't ever been stupid. I went under the porch and made weapons. I grabbed my bow and what arrows I had. I attached my pocket knife to a stick. I hid my "weapons" under my bed just in case I needed them that night. My mom thought I had just snapped and had gone under the porch and started playing. She later learned the truth
My mom had a massive emotional breakdown. Called the cops and got him arrested. Had a restraining order on him for about six months. She began seeing a shrink. I don't remember but she told me that I suddenly became clingy always being with her. She wanted me to go as well. That's how she found out about what i really was doing under the porch.
6 months later he came back. After Anger management, marriage counciling, the works. He was actually trying.
Now he is sinking back. He gets in moods in which he hurts her in whatever ways he can think of. He attacks how she is raising us kids. How she lives her life.
I used to have anger problems myself. I would explode and hurt my sisters. I am better now. Much. I look back now and see it closely related to how my dad was acting. My anger has always given me a strength that I could do things that normally I couldn't. I'm faster, stronger. I know that sounds really wierd. Well now I don't get angry. I haven't hit my sisters in ages. I haven't lost control for a long time. My only fear in this is that if my dad does lose it, I won't be able to compete. Strength for strength he always wins. But if I am in my greatest anger, I know I can beat him. I am afraid I won't be able to bring up that anger that I have been smothering for so long. (I know this entire paragraph makes me sound crazy)
I have told my mom that if he ever does lose it I will not allow anything to happen. She knows what I mean by that. That I will fight him.
What should I do? Should I push for divorce? Or that they stay together? If I were talking to a friend I would definetly push for a split. But its my parents Does anyone have any experience with this?
I am not afraid to do what is necessary. Please help me. What should I do?
Aedammair
About 5 years ago he got angry at the dog and started screaming. He pulled a gun screaming that he was going to shoot the dog. My mom was holding the dog, crying hysterically. I was only about 10 11.
I couldn't physically fight my dad and win. I haven't ever been stupid. I went under the porch and made weapons. I grabbed my bow and what arrows I had. I attached my pocket knife to a stick. I hid my "weapons" under my bed just in case I needed them that night. My mom thought I had just snapped and had gone under the porch and started playing. She later learned the truth
My mom had a massive emotional breakdown. Called the cops and got him arrested. Had a restraining order on him for about six months. She began seeing a shrink. I don't remember but she told me that I suddenly became clingy always being with her. She wanted me to go as well. That's how she found out about what i really was doing under the porch.
6 months later he came back. After Anger management, marriage counciling, the works. He was actually trying.
Now he is sinking back. He gets in moods in which he hurts her in whatever ways he can think of. He attacks how she is raising us kids. How she lives her life.
I used to have anger problems myself. I would explode and hurt my sisters. I am better now. Much. I look back now and see it closely related to how my dad was acting. My anger has always given me a strength that I could do things that normally I couldn't. I'm faster, stronger. I know that sounds really wierd. Well now I don't get angry. I haven't hit my sisters in ages. I haven't lost control for a long time. My only fear in this is that if my dad does lose it, I won't be able to compete. Strength for strength he always wins. But if I am in my greatest anger, I know I can beat him. I am afraid I won't be able to bring up that anger that I have been smothering for so long. (I know this entire paragraph makes me sound crazy)
I have told my mom that if he ever does lose it I will not allow anything to happen. She knows what I mean by that. That I will fight him.
What should I do? Should I push for divorce? Or that they stay together? If I were talking to a friend I would definetly push for a split. But its my parents Does anyone have any experience with this?
I am not afraid to do what is necessary. Please help me. What should I do?
Aedammair