like for example i find even though i desperately crave to be held, hugged for long periods of time i feel so cut off from others even if my dream type of partner offered just tactile TLC i think maybe id be too alienated from others to get the confidence to do so i don't know, i know its made me a bit asexual as im far less sexually aware of attractive people the longer ive been lonely certainly, im wondering if say in 10 years id be asexual