LoneHistoric
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Many including me feel the protection of anonymity here in this forum, no matter how cowardly, helpful, artificial, or relieving it may be. I hate talking, but I went to a doctor today, an internist not a therapist, and he was kind enough to listen to some of my issues while making honest non-intrusive suggestions for self-improvement. It is sad that trust has become a concept only in existence under law. And even then, who knows.
Make a concerted effort to change your life. Self-motivate and conjure some passion for attracting like-minded individuals by exhibiting trust, quiet confidence, and solidarity in heart and mind. Reach out and take some chances by doing something simple like accepting an invitation to a gathering from a work acquaintance or something more nerve-racking like asking out your secret crush. Prepare and hyper-experience the proverbial roller coaster ride over and over again, enduring the constant cycle of exhilaration, desperation, and betrayal, trying to gracefully hack your way through the wild jungle of manically incomprehensible humanity.
The exhaustion is more than enough for depression's birth and permanent residence, and even can be overwhelming to the point of dangerously distressful action on oneself or others. But whether you decide to keep your head up with optimism or down with focus, you keep moving forward, keep trudging along one heavy step after another - perhaps not with much conviction, but in a state of calm and durable hopefulness and self-reliance, imploring whatever transcendent force may exist to not reward but to finally have mercy on your tired, endless, and truthful journey for love and companionship.
Do not let those who forget or refuse to care, feel, or dream affect your already broken spirit. You may still carry the bloodied shattered glass of your soul for as many miles as you choose - so let it be forever. It may be infinitely broken but never taken away. All you can do is to keep showing up every day. Just keep showing up.
Make a concerted effort to change your life. Self-motivate and conjure some passion for attracting like-minded individuals by exhibiting trust, quiet confidence, and solidarity in heart and mind. Reach out and take some chances by doing something simple like accepting an invitation to a gathering from a work acquaintance or something more nerve-racking like asking out your secret crush. Prepare and hyper-experience the proverbial roller coaster ride over and over again, enduring the constant cycle of exhilaration, desperation, and betrayal, trying to gracefully hack your way through the wild jungle of manically incomprehensible humanity.
The exhaustion is more than enough for depression's birth and permanent residence, and even can be overwhelming to the point of dangerously distressful action on oneself or others. But whether you decide to keep your head up with optimism or down with focus, you keep moving forward, keep trudging along one heavy step after another - perhaps not with much conviction, but in a state of calm and durable hopefulness and self-reliance, imploring whatever transcendent force may exist to not reward but to finally have mercy on your tired, endless, and truthful journey for love and companionship.
Do not let those who forget or refuse to care, feel, or dream affect your already broken spirit. You may still carry the bloodied shattered glass of your soul for as many miles as you choose - so let it be forever. It may be infinitely broken but never taken away. All you can do is to keep showing up every day. Just keep showing up.