Aksentije
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I dont know what to do anymore... im really disapointed in life, and also no i dont give a **** about my spelling errors....
anyways, i feel very bad almost every day.. i listen to people in school talking about their girlfriend and boyfriends, and i really go all the way to the bottom, and feel veeery depressed, and there is nothing else to do then just pretend that its all okay. And noone even gives a **** how I am, except from my mother but she is really busy, she barely has time to rest and i really dont have a thing against her but this world....
Its just disgusting to walk around the school hearing people talking about you and your flaws, it really hurts.. and if they see i heard them they think its nothing bad... well guess what it its bad. It makes me wanna kill them and my self... and even the worse thing is when someone insults you when you are with your friends and your friends dont give a **** what was said to you and just ignore it. I am overweight enough to be laughed at, and when you read this thread i guess you kinda wanna mock me and make fun of me...
people think that i am blind and i cant see my flaws...
not to speak that i dont have any kind of accomplishment in my life.. i dont have a talent...i dont have real friends and i dont know love....they say its a beautiful thing and all that but how can it be beautiful when it makes me so sad and so dissapointed in my life.... i really dont know. It would be a lot easier to have someone in this world, just to be there to talk to.
And i will probobly get replys to this thread such as yes i agree if you wanna talk you can PM me... I DONT WANNA FREAKING PM YOU, I DONT WANT SOMEONE WHO WILL PRETEND TO BE MY FRIEND FOR 14 MINUTES!
I hate this planet and this world, and there is nothing good in it for me...
I am sick and tired of being mocked at. i just dont know what to do. Every single day i have to listen to people laughing at me behind my back and i have to take it. I mean when someone tells me something rude i just ignore them, but it really starts to effect me. it makes me think they are right....
i know there are other problems in the world and there are people that have 10000 times worse problems but i have to say this.. i feel lonely. i dont have anyone in my life. No friends, and as for the love... i used to be in love with people, but when all those emotions just stand in one place, they are like fruit, they stay too long and rotten all the way... I dont have anything left inside me other than sadness and anger. I hate romantic movies, i hate love comercials i hate soaps i hate the happily ever after endings... there is nothing for me..... and yet again some part of me hopes, that the time will come when i will feel happy.... but it never does and im not sure if it will...
now i ask youi............. What is love?
anyways, i feel very bad almost every day.. i listen to people in school talking about their girlfriend and boyfriends, and i really go all the way to the bottom, and feel veeery depressed, and there is nothing else to do then just pretend that its all okay. And noone even gives a **** how I am, except from my mother but she is really busy, she barely has time to rest and i really dont have a thing against her but this world....
Its just disgusting to walk around the school hearing people talking about you and your flaws, it really hurts.. and if they see i heard them they think its nothing bad... well guess what it its bad. It makes me wanna kill them and my self... and even the worse thing is when someone insults you when you are with your friends and your friends dont give a **** what was said to you and just ignore it. I am overweight enough to be laughed at, and when you read this thread i guess you kinda wanna mock me and make fun of me...
people think that i am blind and i cant see my flaws...
not to speak that i dont have any kind of accomplishment in my life.. i dont have a talent...i dont have real friends and i dont know love....they say its a beautiful thing and all that but how can it be beautiful when it makes me so sad and so dissapointed in my life.... i really dont know. It would be a lot easier to have someone in this world, just to be there to talk to.
And i will probobly get replys to this thread such as yes i agree if you wanna talk you can PM me... I DONT WANNA FREAKING PM YOU, I DONT WANT SOMEONE WHO WILL PRETEND TO BE MY FRIEND FOR 14 MINUTES!
I hate this planet and this world, and there is nothing good in it for me...
I am sick and tired of being mocked at. i just dont know what to do. Every single day i have to listen to people laughing at me behind my back and i have to take it. I mean when someone tells me something rude i just ignore them, but it really starts to effect me. it makes me think they are right....
i know there are other problems in the world and there are people that have 10000 times worse problems but i have to say this.. i feel lonely. i dont have anyone in my life. No friends, and as for the love... i used to be in love with people, but when all those emotions just stand in one place, they are like fruit, they stay too long and rotten all the way... I dont have anything left inside me other than sadness and anger. I hate romantic movies, i hate love comercials i hate soaps i hate the happily ever after endings... there is nothing for me..... and yet again some part of me hopes, that the time will come when i will feel happy.... but it never does and im not sure if it will...
now i ask youi............. What is love?