hi, I need somewhere to vent and I know I'll get a sympathetic ear here.
I Failed my driving test for the 3rd time today. Absolutely gutted. I was super nervous. and the tester gave out to me for being nervous. It's really crap, I already felt bad about myself as it is and now this.....
Outside of my immediate family, I can't remember the last time someone did something nice for me. And my family don't really count, cause they kinda have to.
My so called friends never make an effort to see me. No-one really gives a crap about me. I can't seem to get people to like me. I've been told I've too much self-pity, I'm angry and needy. All of that is true to some extent, but here's the problem; I look around and everyone else seems to be getting more than me, with happy relationships where people value them, and make them feel good about themselves. I know I shouldn't compare myself to others, but its hard.
Everything good I have in my self comes from my own hard work, my job, my qualifications, my flat, my stuff. I'm not a bad person, I do nice things for other people. It's always me making the effort to see other people.
The only time I ever get invited to stuff is when people need numbers.
All I want is the same as what everyone else is getting, not feeling like I'm worthless because no-one ever wants to spend time with me.
Thanks for listening. I know I went way off point but right now I'm really hurting. It's not just the driving test, its everything.
I Failed my driving test for the 3rd time today. Absolutely gutted. I was super nervous. and the tester gave out to me for being nervous. It's really crap, I already felt bad about myself as it is and now this.....
Outside of my immediate family, I can't remember the last time someone did something nice for me. And my family don't really count, cause they kinda have to.
My so called friends never make an effort to see me. No-one really gives a crap about me. I can't seem to get people to like me. I've been told I've too much self-pity, I'm angry and needy. All of that is true to some extent, but here's the problem; I look around and everyone else seems to be getting more than me, with happy relationships where people value them, and make them feel good about themselves. I know I shouldn't compare myself to others, but its hard.
Everything good I have in my self comes from my own hard work, my job, my qualifications, my flat, my stuff. I'm not a bad person, I do nice things for other people. It's always me making the effort to see other people.
The only time I ever get invited to stuff is when people need numbers.
All I want is the same as what everyone else is getting, not feeling like I'm worthless because no-one ever wants to spend time with me.
Thanks for listening. I know I went way off point but right now I'm really hurting. It's not just the driving test, its everything.