Some of you may know about me or...some of you may not.
But Ive been a member here for awhile and I have yet to post a reason why I'm here.Well guess what today's the day I finally know what I need to say. For as long as I can remember I have fought whether in the school at home or at church I have always been fighting...its what my family does and I cant take it anymore.
It all started this morning over a ******* SHIRT! We got into an argument over a shirt how can you even do this? Its stupid! we fought over it on the way to church until me and my dad got into a fist fight in the middle of the ******* road! all because my dad didn't believe that I had two brown shirts and then he said I called him a lier because I said I did.I mean how the fresia do you tear a family apart and fight like that over a shirt?
Its always over the littlest things or its always over me or the rest of my siblings they just cant get along in the way they raise the kids its hurting me I cant take the fighting anymore so I resort to other forms of comfort you guys not that there's something wrong with that but spending your entire life on the internet because you cant take the real world is a puss move.
I'm running from my problems is what I'm doing I'm closing myself up in my room with you guys because I didn't want to live I cant stand to look at myself every morning and know I hit my own father the man that raised me...
He just doesn't get it he never listens to me and hes always overreacting over the stupidest things I just want us to get along again here for awhile it was going good my mom and my dad were talking to the preacher at church and we were getting along.
Then why? why did this have to happen? what have I done?
I'm a good person or at least I try to be. Am I supposed to be making up for the mistakes of my father? Do I need to learn from this and make up for his mistakes with my own children?
I seriously just wanted to die I was planning on joining the army when I got older I mean it felt like no one cared for me I had no reason to live...
But then....I found her...some of you may know who I'm talking about some of you may not but she gave me reason to live to better myself and to go somewhere with this life Ive been given.
I love you if you read this (she who mustn't be named )and you must believe me you mean the world to me.....
I don't need this forum anymore I don't think I may pop in for good times sake every once in awhile but I'm not lonely anymore and some of you may be like wtf? you said you weren't here because of loneliness....yeah I lied even on the Internet you can wear masks I haven't been myself for awhile and for those of you that suffered for it I'm truly and sincerely sorry.
-Hijacc A.K.A T.J. formerly know as Jack ass.
(My first post of any actual importance)
But Ive been a member here for awhile and I have yet to post a reason why I'm here.Well guess what today's the day I finally know what I need to say. For as long as I can remember I have fought whether in the school at home or at church I have always been fighting...its what my family does and I cant take it anymore.
It all started this morning over a ******* SHIRT! We got into an argument over a shirt how can you even do this? Its stupid! we fought over it on the way to church until me and my dad got into a fist fight in the middle of the ******* road! all because my dad didn't believe that I had two brown shirts and then he said I called him a lier because I said I did.I mean how the fresia do you tear a family apart and fight like that over a shirt?
Its always over the littlest things or its always over me or the rest of my siblings they just cant get along in the way they raise the kids its hurting me I cant take the fighting anymore so I resort to other forms of comfort you guys not that there's something wrong with that but spending your entire life on the internet because you cant take the real world is a puss move.
I'm running from my problems is what I'm doing I'm closing myself up in my room with you guys because I didn't want to live I cant stand to look at myself every morning and know I hit my own father the man that raised me...
He just doesn't get it he never listens to me and hes always overreacting over the stupidest things I just want us to get along again here for awhile it was going good my mom and my dad were talking to the preacher at church and we were getting along.
Then why? why did this have to happen? what have I done?
I'm a good person or at least I try to be. Am I supposed to be making up for the mistakes of my father? Do I need to learn from this and make up for his mistakes with my own children?
I seriously just wanted to die I was planning on joining the army when I got older I mean it felt like no one cared for me I had no reason to live...
But then....I found her...some of you may know who I'm talking about some of you may not but she gave me reason to live to better myself and to go somewhere with this life Ive been given.
I love you if you read this (she who mustn't be named )and you must believe me you mean the world to me.....
I don't need this forum anymore I don't think I may pop in for good times sake every once in awhile but I'm not lonely anymore and some of you may be like wtf? you said you weren't here because of loneliness....yeah I lied even on the Internet you can wear masks I haven't been myself for awhile and for those of you that suffered for it I'm truly and sincerely sorry.
-Hijacc A.K.A T.J. formerly know as Jack ass.
(My first post of any actual importance)