lifewasterdaydreamer
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Like the thread says, I just wanna know how people deal with facial acne (e.g scarring, blemishes, marks, whatever you'd whish would dissappear really). I've been dealing with facial acne scarring scince is was 13 as soon as i started high school (which looking back is a real *****).
I know its played a hugh part of my negative high school experience, I felt I had to cover my scars with make up for school everyday, which I've always hated, I've never been a girly girl so have never been comfortable with it to this day. As some of you probably know its not always convienient wearing makeup all the time every day as it smudges especially in things like sports ect.
I know for me to this day it feels like being stuck in a vicious circle, covering my face with makeup (weather it oil based of mineral based) never does it any good, I just get more breakouts which always leaves behind deep unsightly scarring which I then have to cover over with more make up, Its like when will this cycle end. I just want my skin to breath, I wanna be able to touch my face without makeup smudging on my hands or get on my clothes one way or another. I wanna be able to leave my house without wearing any of it.
I just want the acne to stop (being 20 I thought I would have grown out of it by now) and I want my scars to go. They are unsightly to look at every day and really get me depressed. I know they will take years to fade which I will have to accept.
I've tried going bare in the past but this was an epic fail for me as many passers would blatently stare at my face without fail, you just wanted to be invisible while my face was just attracting lots attention and whispers from people but at the same time it does'nt bother me what people think cause I know whatever they think of the way I look, I know I have a much lowerer opinion of it.
It annoys me because I just want to be myself, thats really all I ever wanted to do and the one time I choose to I'm made to feel like a walking freak of nature, like I'm not allowed to feel normal, comfortable or accepted in my own skin.
I know its damaged my confidence imensely and is partly why I have very few friends, I shy away from most social sitiations or gatherings and I end up missing out in life in general. I'm the first to admit its a honeysuckle existance.
I think what hurts most is knowing that its a huge turn off or unattractive quality to have, especially as I've never had a boyfriend and having feelings and these issues just makes me feel like I never will.
Ever scince my early teens I always felt that guys would never like me in that way so I always told myself that I was'nt interested in guys, I was never really physically attracted to guys anyway until my very late teens, thats when I would walk past random guys who I would never of noticed before but all of a sudden find very noticable and attractive, which would just make a piece of me die inside knowing It would never happen, having any sort of relationship, having the confidence to talk to a guy, a guy being attracted to me ect.
Sorry for rabbling on, just feel very strongly about this and for a long while.
Just wanted to here other people opinion on it, how they deal with it, how it effects them ect.
I know its played a hugh part of my negative high school experience, I felt I had to cover my scars with make up for school everyday, which I've always hated, I've never been a girly girl so have never been comfortable with it to this day. As some of you probably know its not always convienient wearing makeup all the time every day as it smudges especially in things like sports ect.
I know for me to this day it feels like being stuck in a vicious circle, covering my face with makeup (weather it oil based of mineral based) never does it any good, I just get more breakouts which always leaves behind deep unsightly scarring which I then have to cover over with more make up, Its like when will this cycle end. I just want my skin to breath, I wanna be able to touch my face without makeup smudging on my hands or get on my clothes one way or another. I wanna be able to leave my house without wearing any of it.
I just want the acne to stop (being 20 I thought I would have grown out of it by now) and I want my scars to go. They are unsightly to look at every day and really get me depressed. I know they will take years to fade which I will have to accept.
I've tried going bare in the past but this was an epic fail for me as many passers would blatently stare at my face without fail, you just wanted to be invisible while my face was just attracting lots attention and whispers from people but at the same time it does'nt bother me what people think cause I know whatever they think of the way I look, I know I have a much lowerer opinion of it.
It annoys me because I just want to be myself, thats really all I ever wanted to do and the one time I choose to I'm made to feel like a walking freak of nature, like I'm not allowed to feel normal, comfortable or accepted in my own skin.
I know its damaged my confidence imensely and is partly why I have very few friends, I shy away from most social sitiations or gatherings and I end up missing out in life in general. I'm the first to admit its a honeysuckle existance.
I think what hurts most is knowing that its a huge turn off or unattractive quality to have, especially as I've never had a boyfriend and having feelings and these issues just makes me feel like I never will.
Ever scince my early teens I always felt that guys would never like me in that way so I always told myself that I was'nt interested in guys, I was never really physically attracted to guys anyway until my very late teens, thats when I would walk past random guys who I would never of noticed before but all of a sudden find very noticable and attractive, which would just make a piece of me die inside knowing It would never happen, having any sort of relationship, having the confidence to talk to a guy, a guy being attracted to me ect.
Sorry for rabbling on, just feel very strongly about this and for a long while.
Just wanted to here other people opinion on it, how they deal with it, how it effects them ect.