wolvesjr
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Normally I don't share much about me publicly around here, but today I'm really frustrated and need to vent.
Right now I'm feeling another one of my depression cycles coming on. I hate it because there's nothing I can do about it. After working with a therapist and my doctor I can recognize the symptoms what's about to happen when it starts. It starts with an increased anxiety and a growing feeling of total isolation. Even in a room full of people I'll start to feel desperately alone. These feelings will build and build until I'm pretty well paralyzed with fear. I'll sit or lay there for several hours so terrorized that I'm unable to move until the feeling starts to slowly lift. These cycles last about 3 days and it's so beyond frustrating because I know by this time tomorrow I'll be a wreck and nothing can be done to stop it.
My therapist has helped me better prepare myself for when I bottom out by meeting and accepting the crash will happen. As well as coming up with some mental exercises to speed up my recovery when the episode is ending. The worst part is I know that in another 2-3 weeks the cycle will start all over again. My doctor and therapist are still trying to figure out a cause and treatment options as nothing is working to break the pattern. I hate not having any answers as to why this is happening to me.
Right now I'm feeling another one of my depression cycles coming on. I hate it because there's nothing I can do about it. After working with a therapist and my doctor I can recognize the symptoms what's about to happen when it starts. It starts with an increased anxiety and a growing feeling of total isolation. Even in a room full of people I'll start to feel desperately alone. These feelings will build and build until I'm pretty well paralyzed with fear. I'll sit or lay there for several hours so terrorized that I'm unable to move until the feeling starts to slowly lift. These cycles last about 3 days and it's so beyond frustrating because I know by this time tomorrow I'll be a wreck and nothing can be done to stop it.
My therapist has helped me better prepare myself for when I bottom out by meeting and accepting the crash will happen. As well as coming up with some mental exercises to speed up my recovery when the episode is ending. The worst part is I know that in another 2-3 weeks the cycle will start all over again. My doctor and therapist are still trying to figure out a cause and treatment options as nothing is working to break the pattern. I hate not having any answers as to why this is happening to me.