hitch1983
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Hi,
im 31 years old. Ive got alot to be thankful for in my life and i am but one thing has always been missing. Love.
Since i was old enough or have a desire to date, say since i was 15/16, ive never had a relationship that's lasted longer than 3 months. if you can even call 3 months a relationship.
Even though im not especially great looking, maybe 5 or a 6 if i was rated out of 10 on a good day. In the early days i still thought i had something to offer the opposite sex. I might not be classical handsome but always thought, im a decent guy, im a little shy but if people took the time to get to know me, they would see that it was just as good as anyone else, and i believed this whole heartily.
But as the years went on and rejection ensued, i realise now ive been losing a little bit of my soul. At first rejection was really tough for me, i would go into depression. I couldnt understand why i was soo coldly rejected. But i still soldiered on and kept trying. Each subsequent rejection always hurt, but eventually i became cold it and react in a different way. (lose hope, feel like giving up completely)
Its now got to the stage when a whole year will have passed and i havent even pursued one date!
I should also say, when it comes to where am i looking, ive tried it all. Online dating, churches, sports clubs, work, thru friends etc etc. nothing has stuck.
the best success i had was online, but that was always long distance, every person to person encounter ive had, has lasted no more than 3 dates.
Im feeling soo dejected and devoid of hope that i find it hard to even start looking again.
Ive lost that believe in myself, how can any other girls possibly want me if i now dont think ill be any good for them myself.
so my cry is - do i give up or how can you learn to live with the fact ull probably be alone your whole life.
im 31 years old. Ive got alot to be thankful for in my life and i am but one thing has always been missing. Love.
Since i was old enough or have a desire to date, say since i was 15/16, ive never had a relationship that's lasted longer than 3 months. if you can even call 3 months a relationship.
Even though im not especially great looking, maybe 5 or a 6 if i was rated out of 10 on a good day. In the early days i still thought i had something to offer the opposite sex. I might not be classical handsome but always thought, im a decent guy, im a little shy but if people took the time to get to know me, they would see that it was just as good as anyone else, and i believed this whole heartily.
But as the years went on and rejection ensued, i realise now ive been losing a little bit of my soul. At first rejection was really tough for me, i would go into depression. I couldnt understand why i was soo coldly rejected. But i still soldiered on and kept trying. Each subsequent rejection always hurt, but eventually i became cold it and react in a different way. (lose hope, feel like giving up completely)
Its now got to the stage when a whole year will have passed and i havent even pursued one date!
I should also say, when it comes to where am i looking, ive tried it all. Online dating, churches, sports clubs, work, thru friends etc etc. nothing has stuck.
the best success i had was online, but that was always long distance, every person to person encounter ive had, has lasted no more than 3 dates.
Im feeling soo dejected and devoid of hope that i find it hard to even start looking again.
Ive lost that believe in myself, how can any other girls possibly want me if i now dont think ill be any good for them myself.
so my cry is - do i give up or how can you learn to live with the fact ull probably be alone your whole life.