IsaaKC
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I grew up in a family with an alcoholic father. I'm sure you can imagine what this would do to a child, but that's not the end of it.
I no longer talk to my sister because she had sex with someone I hate and lied to me about it.
I felt so betrayed & hurt, I couldn't help it.
on top of that, I just feel so outcast from the rest of my family. We are mexican, and I myself am out of touch with the culture, I barely speak spanish, and I'm not a fan of the food.
I know this seems petty, but for some reason it hurts, to see all of them enjoy a thorougly prepared meal while I'm just eating a sandwich.
I've never been particularly close to my brother, in fact sometimes I've felt jealous because he actually gets along with my father.
I've tried to get close with my brother but what aggrevates me is that my brother takes my father to get drunk. My dad can't drive, he has 2 dui's and has lost his license.
I've never had a girlfriend and the one time that I was close to, I opened myself up & told her how I felt, and afterwards she began to ignore me and go after some other guy. It hurt so much, I've avoided trying to get with anyone else either. I keep thinking I did something wrong, and don't wanna do it again.
I just got my associates degree from a community college and am scared I won't be able to get into a 4 year university.
I am taking some math classes that I need these next 3 semesters that I need in order to transfer, but for some reason, I feel like I'm running out of time.
I was rejected from all the other schools I wanted to go to when I was in high school, which is why I went to a community college.
I haven't been able to find a job for the past few months, I've gotten interviews, but all of them have said no. My mom and me got into a fight about this, and she got angry at me for making a comment about me being smarter her. I know this was insensitive, but I can't help but feel maybe I would be better if she did not marry my father.
I'm pretty sure everyone here can relate not having someone to talk to, not being able to express how you feel, just letting all this bottle up inside, but for some reason it's been bothering me more lately. I've been crying alot more and a question that keeps going on in my mind is "What do I have to do? What do I have to do? What do I have to do? What do I have to do?"
do I have to change?
is who I am the reason Why I am so alone?
I no longer talk to my sister because she had sex with someone I hate and lied to me about it.
I felt so betrayed & hurt, I couldn't help it.
on top of that, I just feel so outcast from the rest of my family. We are mexican, and I myself am out of touch with the culture, I barely speak spanish, and I'm not a fan of the food.
I know this seems petty, but for some reason it hurts, to see all of them enjoy a thorougly prepared meal while I'm just eating a sandwich.
I've never been particularly close to my brother, in fact sometimes I've felt jealous because he actually gets along with my father.
I've tried to get close with my brother but what aggrevates me is that my brother takes my father to get drunk. My dad can't drive, he has 2 dui's and has lost his license.
I've never had a girlfriend and the one time that I was close to, I opened myself up & told her how I felt, and afterwards she began to ignore me and go after some other guy. It hurt so much, I've avoided trying to get with anyone else either. I keep thinking I did something wrong, and don't wanna do it again.
I just got my associates degree from a community college and am scared I won't be able to get into a 4 year university.
I am taking some math classes that I need these next 3 semesters that I need in order to transfer, but for some reason, I feel like I'm running out of time.
I was rejected from all the other schools I wanted to go to when I was in high school, which is why I went to a community college.
I haven't been able to find a job for the past few months, I've gotten interviews, but all of them have said no. My mom and me got into a fight about this, and she got angry at me for making a comment about me being smarter her. I know this was insensitive, but I can't help but feel maybe I would be better if she did not marry my father.
I'm pretty sure everyone here can relate not having someone to talk to, not being able to express how you feel, just letting all this bottle up inside, but for some reason it's been bothering me more lately. I've been crying alot more and a question that keeps going on in my mind is "What do I have to do? What do I have to do? What do I have to do? What do I have to do?"
do I have to change?
is who I am the reason Why I am so alone?