thenissilent
Member
Hi, all! I'm a 32-year-old American guy who's recently realized the situation he's gotten himself into.
I don't want to bludgeon everybody with my life story, so I'll try to keep this short. I had a difficult childhood, followed by predictably difficult teenage years that left me feeling very angry. I unwisely spent years dwelling on, even reveling in, that anger and using some unhealthy expressions. I used to argue with people online to the point of obsession until I finally realized it was taking up all my spare time. I can see where I've pushed others away, while the only relationship I consistently cultivated for years was with a "friend" who was even more anti-social than me. Now that we're no longer speaking, I find myself in this neat little prison in which I work full-time and spend my nights and free days alone and often bored.
I read, I collect comic books, and I love horror movies and of course the odd TV show or two. I've rediscovered creative writing as a healthy way to express my anger and have mostly let go of the past. Now I've decided to get out of this prison, but I'm having some trouble figuring that out. I'm not sure I ever really learned how to make friends as an adult because almost all of the people I talk to are co-workers. I'm already looking online for a boyfriend after being single for a long, long time, so I thought I'd try to find some people to talk to here.
Aside from talking via forums, I'm looking for people to swap IMs with, and if that goes well, it would be great to have some phone chats (which wouldn't be a problem for me since my phone service charges me the same no matter where I call).
I hope y'all are doing well and that I can get to know some of you.
I don't want to bludgeon everybody with my life story, so I'll try to keep this short. I had a difficult childhood, followed by predictably difficult teenage years that left me feeling very angry. I unwisely spent years dwelling on, even reveling in, that anger and using some unhealthy expressions. I used to argue with people online to the point of obsession until I finally realized it was taking up all my spare time. I can see where I've pushed others away, while the only relationship I consistently cultivated for years was with a "friend" who was even more anti-social than me. Now that we're no longer speaking, I find myself in this neat little prison in which I work full-time and spend my nights and free days alone and often bored.
I read, I collect comic books, and I love horror movies and of course the odd TV show or two. I've rediscovered creative writing as a healthy way to express my anger and have mostly let go of the past. Now I've decided to get out of this prison, but I'm having some trouble figuring that out. I'm not sure I ever really learned how to make friends as an adult because almost all of the people I talk to are co-workers. I'm already looking online for a boyfriend after being single for a long, long time, so I thought I'd try to find some people to talk to here.
Aside from talking via forums, I'm looking for people to swap IMs with, and if that goes well, it would be great to have some phone chats (which wouldn't be a problem for me since my phone service charges me the same no matter where I call).
I hope y'all are doing well and that I can get to know some of you.
