So obviously I did leave a few things out. I do have a strong support system when it comes to my family. My friends (in my mind) not so much. I graduated from college, have an awesome job, and getting married in October. Things should be simple. My family has this image of me that I don't do anything wrong and that I'm a good kid. In reality I have done bad things and I have a problem with cheating that obviously no one knows about. (please please don't judge me or stop talking to because of that). I don't know why I do it because I am happy with my fiancé. It's almost like I live a secret little life in my head.
My friends have always been there when I needed them to be but I feel like I do so much more for them then would ever do for me. My fiancé makes good money and every time someone needed help I was always there to help because in my mind I thought they would do the same for me. Needless to say, my fiancé got laid off a couple of months ago and we are struggling to make ends meet. Where are all the friends that I've helped? No where to be found