ShawnPearce
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Tonight I went out for a social drink with a friend and found it hard to think straight with a clear mind. The place was packed with people, and I found myself mostly focused on everything that was going on around me, while doing my best to keep my concentration focused on what my friend was saying to me. The night just sucked. I just wish the environment had of been more clear and comfortable. I stopped socializing with friends because I never enjoy myself. A lot more could have been said, but unfortunately wasn't, (on my side). I wanted to open up to him more, but I felt lost for words. To be perfectly honest, I felt kind of dumb. At the end of the night I was glad to walk through the front door of my apartment (my comfort zone) and can hardly wait until he calls me to get together again (if he ever does) ...*sarcasim*. Aw well, at least my attitude was in the right place. Usually I would have made up an excuse as to why I "couldn't" go out. But this time, despite how I knew I was going to feel, I went out anyway, and didn't let my social issues ruin my night. I just wish I felt more comfortable in social situations. Maybe I just need more practice. Feel free to share your own experiences or give me any advice on how I can relax better when I go out. That should be it. Thanks! ;D