Hi Lost,
Hope things have gotten better. You sound like a great person. After all you've been through you should be proud you are still a good person. The people on this forum seem great! You already have great friends. Maybe better friends than many of us have! Please never forget to pray if times get hard. It always helps me,has NEVER failed! My heart goes out to you and if I can be of help let me know!
Best,
SD