So I finally worked up the courage to send a 'kiss' on RSPV. I didn't think she was particularly attractive but I thought that we would get along because we liked the same things.
So I sent the 'friend' kiss, I thought we would easily be friends & if anything developed from that then that would be a bonus.
Low & behold I get the "We don't have enough in common" rejection message.
I couldn't believe it. Believe me, this girl is no looker, at the very best she's mediocre (looks wise). With our profiles almost carbon copies of each other in the interests & hobbies department I thought that it must be MY looks.
At the end of the day, if I can't have attractive AND I can't have average then I guess I might as well not even bother.
To be brutally honest, when I was in my 20's I totally loved women even though it was hard for me then. Since going on dating sites in my 30's I've grown to hate them. When I think about women now all I see are vicious hurtful bitches. I feel like I want to hurt women emotionally and say, 'How does it feel'? Then gloat at their emotional pain.
I'll never do this because I'll never get to even talk to a woman, even if I did, I wouldn't have the balls to do it. I know this is a sick way to think but what am I supposed to do? Just take it on the chin & be happy that every woman is a rude, hurtful attention seeking whore?
I thought maybe I could go gay but the thought of touching a guy turns me off too much.
Suicide is another option but again, I don't have the balls.
Today I though maybe I could be chemically castrated so that I could live my life without the need/want for a woman & I wouldn't have to be constantly suffering.
I know this is how nature works, it weeds out the ugly & the week so we can't reproduce & make another ugly, week offspring.
I truly believe that having a baby should require a licence of some kind with stringent prerequisites. People have to have a licence to drive & even own a dog but any ******* can have a kid & treat it like honeysuckle. It's just not right.
For instance, my father was an abusive alcoholic & my mother has OCD. I am the result. An unhappy, unproductive person who only wishes that he'd never been born.
I realise that I've gone off on a tangent here but I think it all ties in.
So I sent the 'friend' kiss, I thought we would easily be friends & if anything developed from that then that would be a bonus.
Low & behold I get the "We don't have enough in common" rejection message.
I couldn't believe it. Believe me, this girl is no looker, at the very best she's mediocre (looks wise). With our profiles almost carbon copies of each other in the interests & hobbies department I thought that it must be MY looks.
At the end of the day, if I can't have attractive AND I can't have average then I guess I might as well not even bother.
To be brutally honest, when I was in my 20's I totally loved women even though it was hard for me then. Since going on dating sites in my 30's I've grown to hate them. When I think about women now all I see are vicious hurtful bitches. I feel like I want to hurt women emotionally and say, 'How does it feel'? Then gloat at their emotional pain.
I'll never do this because I'll never get to even talk to a woman, even if I did, I wouldn't have the balls to do it. I know this is a sick way to think but what am I supposed to do? Just take it on the chin & be happy that every woman is a rude, hurtful attention seeking whore?
I thought maybe I could go gay but the thought of touching a guy turns me off too much.
Suicide is another option but again, I don't have the balls.
Today I though maybe I could be chemically castrated so that I could live my life without the need/want for a woman & I wouldn't have to be constantly suffering.
I know this is how nature works, it weeds out the ugly & the week so we can't reproduce & make another ugly, week offspring.
I truly believe that having a baby should require a licence of some kind with stringent prerequisites. People have to have a licence to drive & even own a dog but any ******* can have a kid & treat it like honeysuckle. It's just not right.
For instance, my father was an abusive alcoholic & my mother has OCD. I am the result. An unhappy, unproductive person who only wishes that he'd never been born.
I realise that I've gone off on a tangent here but I think it all ties in.