InSearchOfPeople
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It won't be a surprise if I said that I constantly feel out of place and alone. That's why I am here.
I went to a lady, who is like a spiritualist and does consulting. She told me, that I am scattered all over the place, my heart has been broken many times and all the pieces are far apart and the longer I go as a loner, the more loneliness is growing on me as a snowball. She said my broken energy attracts wrong people now, those that want to take advantage of my vulnerability, and it pushes away others.
She suggested I get a cat. And I will, but it will take time too, I feel like I need to get prepared for that, because it is a responsibility.
I need to find a place, where I feel like a refuge, a sanctuary. A place that will not be connected to my work or any people from it or anybody I am associated with at the moment, those who cause me so much pain.
For a minute it was my gym, it is super expensive and people from my work don't go there. But because I work so much, I can't be consistent by going there and often I wish I had somebody to go with me.
Then I tried sort of dating with guys that are not my type for anything serious, but could be just a distraction for me. It didn't go well, because I naturally get attached and sincere with people that don't deserve it.
I went to school for English, though I don't need it, and for a minute people that I met there were like that refuge company I was looking for. But most of them turned out lonely and broken just like me and I learnt that two or more broken confused people won't be able to help each other.....may be I am wrong, but it didn't work out.
Please give me some suggestions. I just need something or someone that I can communicate or do and it will be apart from my daily routine, like a fresh breath of air.
I went to a lady, who is like a spiritualist and does consulting. She told me, that I am scattered all over the place, my heart has been broken many times and all the pieces are far apart and the longer I go as a loner, the more loneliness is growing on me as a snowball. She said my broken energy attracts wrong people now, those that want to take advantage of my vulnerability, and it pushes away others.
She suggested I get a cat. And I will, but it will take time too, I feel like I need to get prepared for that, because it is a responsibility.
I need to find a place, where I feel like a refuge, a sanctuary. A place that will not be connected to my work or any people from it or anybody I am associated with at the moment, those who cause me so much pain.
For a minute it was my gym, it is super expensive and people from my work don't go there. But because I work so much, I can't be consistent by going there and often I wish I had somebody to go with me.
Then I tried sort of dating with guys that are not my type for anything serious, but could be just a distraction for me. It didn't go well, because I naturally get attached and sincere with people that don't deserve it.
I went to school for English, though I don't need it, and for a minute people that I met there were like that refuge company I was looking for. But most of them turned out lonely and broken just like me and I learnt that two or more broken confused people won't be able to help each other.....may be I am wrong, but it didn't work out.
Please give me some suggestions. I just need something or someone that I can communicate or do and it will be apart from my daily routine, like a fresh breath of air.