jjessea
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I am so alone, and I feel so hopeless.
I'm 35 years old, and I haven't had a personal relationship in over 10 years. I've never had a girlfriend, and only had a handful of friends, most of whom passed away when I was in my early twenty's. We did a lot of drugs.
Now I'm a Paramedic, and I don't feel like what I do matters anymore. I want to make a difference but it seems that people are either too sick save, or not sick enough to help. I've grown to hate the healthcare system at large and often wonder why I've chosen to be a part of it.
All I want, all I really want, is someone to hold on to. Someone to gently caress, to kiss, to smile sweetly at and have her smile back. Someone to care for, to care for me, someone to love. I just can't forge any relationships with anyone, I can't connect, and I've just given up.
I'm 35 years old, and I haven't had a personal relationship in over 10 years. I've never had a girlfriend, and only had a handful of friends, most of whom passed away when I was in my early twenty's. We did a lot of drugs.
Now I'm a Paramedic, and I don't feel like what I do matters anymore. I want to make a difference but it seems that people are either too sick save, or not sick enough to help. I've grown to hate the healthcare system at large and often wonder why I've chosen to be a part of it.
All I want, all I really want, is someone to hold on to. Someone to gently caress, to kiss, to smile sweetly at and have her smile back. Someone to care for, to care for me, someone to love. I just can't forge any relationships with anyone, I can't connect, and I've just given up.