LonelyBurner
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[font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]Growing up [/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]my family they treated me like absolute garbage. My father was a felon and my mom got over on people every chance s[/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]he could[/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]. The rest of my family [/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]would always take their [/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]anger out on me for the things they did to them. Everybody lets go to the park except you, everybody[/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif] lets eats except you.[/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]I never had friends because my mother was always getting over on people and changed[/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif] locations often. [/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]I never stayed in one place for too long to get comfortable. The only people I was left to associate with [/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]was my best friend, the only person who sticked around even though I told him to leave its not worth it being friends with me, my grandma and my little sister. Recently my [/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]grandma just got out of the hospital with serious dementia and acts like she doesnt know anything and looks for aliens, [/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]my younger sister is going through those teenage phases where she doesnt want to speak to me anymore since its uncool and m[/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]y best friend had a few kids and hes constantly busy. Just[/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif] like that everyones out of my life. I have a problem keeping relationships with other people because I think im going to leave and never see them again or their going to leave me . And no no [/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]therapist takes me seriously. My skin constantly hurts, my mother is off the rocker with her psych meds and needs me to take care of her[/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif], my sisters constantly trash her place and refuse to help her[/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif], cavity pain, knee pain, neuropathy, skin pain, WHY AM I HERE STILL? I see people complain everyday and I would [/font][font=Tahoma, Verdana, Arial, sans-serif]switch places with them in a heartbeat. I would gladly take their problems. I would question why god abandoned me but im happier with thinking he doesnt exist. Because if he does I want him to know he pics favorites and id stop at nothing to make him fall. [/font]