I sometimes wonder whether every single person in my life will eventually forget about me. I don't seem to have any staying power with people at all. I tried so hard to stay in touch with all my friends from high school when I dropped out of 6th form but one by one they all drifted away.
I haven't been to a family gathering in years either. I sometimes wonder what's said about my absence. It must seem weird I'm not there and it sometimes feels like I'm not part of the family anymore and tend to hear everyone's news in a second hand way. I can't really complain about this too much as it was my "decision" to stop going but never once has anyone checked in with me, so to speak. I also couldn't face going back to them now. All those questions of where was I working or about relationships.
It's been the same with every boyfriend I've ever had. Its seems to take one nanosecond to get over me. No one has ever seemed sad to loose me or wanted back because they missed me. I don't know but in a twisted way at the back of my mind I always thought break ups would be easier if I just didn't feel so instantly forgotten and in many cases replaced.
I just don't think I have much of an effect on peoples lives I guess.
I just never feel missed at all...
I haven't been to a family gathering in years either. I sometimes wonder what's said about my absence. It must seem weird I'm not there and it sometimes feels like I'm not part of the family anymore and tend to hear everyone's news in a second hand way. I can't really complain about this too much as it was my "decision" to stop going but never once has anyone checked in with me, so to speak. I also couldn't face going back to them now. All those questions of where was I working or about relationships.
It's been the same with every boyfriend I've ever had. Its seems to take one nanosecond to get over me. No one has ever seemed sad to loose me or wanted back because they missed me. I don't know but in a twisted way at the back of my mind I always thought break ups would be easier if I just didn't feel so instantly forgotten and in many cases replaced.
I just don't think I have much of an effect on peoples lives I guess.
I just never feel missed at all...